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Praying
Tempers are frayed. We're shortstaffed. Please let the next 5 hours go quickly. It's a double earplug day.
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Messed up again
How messed up am I post meltdown? I said some really terrible things while angry. How do you seek forgiveness?
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Freewriting Monday January 11
So this past weekend was pretty productive. Got rid of 6 loads of trash. I need to motivate myself to get rid of the trashbag with the Goodwill donations. I have planned my doctors appointsments on Google. I have called the receptionist at the psychologist's office and asked her to make a note that I want to change psychiatrists, since the ( Read more... ) -
Smash Journal Things....
So I am bored at the office trying to keep cool through a socially crazy day. I passed the job end of the year assessment thing that I bombed on a few years back. The source of a bad, crazy tailspin, new psychiatrist and a foray into "serious" dating (beauliebchen). So I've been dating a few guys. Very few! I've been trying to work through the ( Read more... ) -
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So I got to go on a date with a really sweet guy. We saw Ant-Man, The Watchmen, Guardians of the Galaxy. We had some Chick Fil A and Chinese. We got to stop by Rob's store. Really fun. Really sweet. Now it's time to chill and get my sleep patterns back in check.
I was worried about running into exes at Rob Con and the LEAF festival last weekend but ( Read more... ) -
The Bipolar Quell: "I Don't Like Mens No More"
My psychiatrist started me on Sproul - a bipolar medication. I have felt more tired and moody but not as ranty. My tongue feels very unwieldy so I have a bit of a lisp. I kind of miss the Beauliebchen but I really just need some friends not dating stuff right now. If I am dealing with hormonal stuff right now, the new medicine is really keeping ( Read more... ) -
Medieval Russian Garb
So the Beauliebchen decided to IM me a week after our huge blow out. He still wanted to be Facebook friends, but I wanted to have some boundaries. I said no. I got the good ol' take care of yourself/I hope you find someone terrific for you speech. I really really wish he'd never contacted me at all. I've got a lot of emotional work to do, and I ( Read more... ) -
Write It Down, But Don't Send The Letter
So I broke up with the guy I was seeing recently. I'm in that day 2 angry stage. On a good note I want to get my life to the point where it was just prior to dating him. I was coming out of that major post job review depression. I was feeling good on the Vyvance. I was working on getting some extra work to get myself some extra life experience. I ( Read more... ) -
I've got "Ishus".
Alright so I have completed month number two in a polyfidelitous relationship. Go me. And I barely survived being away in Roanoke at a burlesque show. Right now I'm in that whole my libido is a wild ravenous animal stage. Right now the one thing I am getting out of my current relationship is the whole learning to be in an actual serious ( Read more... ) -
Bored and sleepy
So today will be one of the last quiet days in the office for awhile. I was caught being absentminded again. By someone I don't get along with. And my meds are working so well that I'm like yeah whatever. I need to get pumped up for the Roanoke trip. I'm seeing Bella La Blanc and company doing a Game of Thrones-themed burlesque show. I also need to ( Read more... )