In the playground of the broken hearts

[elkoralish]

I've had this window open for a half hour now. I don't know what to type

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[scurvymuffin]

I use my journal to vent about my life. It is ok if your journal is depressing, I think it is good to get it out. Everyone goes through hard times, This has been the worst year of my life. Just look towards 2004 with open eyes!

BTW- Hello! You added me a week or so ago and I have not replied to any of your posts yet. It really brightens my day when someone I do not know adds me to their friends list. Just out of curiosity, how did you find me? If you don't remember thats ok :)

[elkoralish]

what a coincidence.. this has been the worst year of my life as well. Trying to be positive but I just don't see it getting any better any time soon..

oh, and on the add... If I remember correctly (and I may not) I believe I made a comment that I liked dajeth's layout and he told me you made it and directed me to your journal.

[scurvymuffin]

If I removed everyone on my friends list that have been posting about how bad this year is I would only be left with the 15 year old girls. All you can do is try and see a light at the end of the tunnel. I got to the point that I had to stop trying and just drown myself with activities. I have not forgotten the reasons why my life has sucked this year, but my ass is looking a lot better :)

Thanks for the props on my layout skills. Web design is one of my "drowning" hobbies.

Not Really

[anonymous]

Actually, that guy you used to be was also a dick:) However, the good news for you is that there is no going back in life... if you do this correctly (and yes, in spite of how you are feeling, there is a correct way to go about this) you will grow into a new YOU, with a real possibility of actually NOT being a dick:) This, however, is entirely up to you. As for that lonely feeling... get used to it. I have been (at times) terribly lonely for over 2 and a half years. Just proof that although it is good to be independent and single, it can also be a heavy burden on the heart. Life, can and does suck at times, you have just been fortunately unaware of this for many years. So was I. ---- Joe

Re: Not Really

[elkoralish]

I'm not lonely in that sense.
I just feel really alone today, and I don't really have anywhere to go.
I don't mind being alone, I just feel like I'm out here all by myself right now.

And I am fully aware that life can, and does, suck.

[darqstar]

It's okay... a journal is supposed to be you completely. At your best, worst, most interesting, most boring. Right now, we've got you at the worst, at some point, we'll probably get you at the best.

Do you have a place to stay? *Worried*

[elkoralish]

Well, I'm at mom's right now. not really super comfy here either but it is warm and as it's quite chilly out tonight I'll take it.
I need to find a place asap.

I just feel like I'm whining, and I know that I'm not really; but I still feel that way. And to spite how my journal has read, I really can be a happy upbeat guy.

[darqstar]

As I said, it's okay. Your true friends will understand and be there for you. Those who are "unhappy" with your journal, well, it is a journal. People do seem to forget that. I look at mine this way... I write it for me about me. I just let others who might be interested see it.

I'm glad to hear you have a place to lay your head for now. Yeah, going home to a parent always has the suck side of things, but it sure as hell beats the streets.

Hopefully, you'll find your own place soon, or things will sort themselves out.

[jerseygrl23]

aww sweetie i'm so sorry! :(