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i thought that after exams are over, i'd be relieved and feel ten times better and happier. but everything feels worse, in a vague, puzzling way. something's missing. and people are just downright rude. i don't even wanna go to austin anymore, nor colorado for that fact. i just wanna lay down and sleep and never wake up.
elections are tomorrow. i don't think i'll make it. but hollen will, although he didn't make ffa president and he's really upset about it. so i hope he gets secretary if anything.
i love the feeling you get after stressing. after everything's over with and after you've done what you needed to do. but i hate that i don't have anyone to share it with. like, NO ONE, not praowe, not randa, not hollen, not beaula, not even brandon. i hate that i don't have a car, or my license, or any mode of transportation. freedom sucks.
psh. colorado in 2 weeks. why bother.