this weekend i realized a lot of things ( Read more... )

drained.
the color from my face
the light in my eyes
the spirit within my heart.

too bad the beating never stopped.
its not doing any good now.
my heart has become
that lonely hunter.

wandering, wondering
what is the point of its existence
draining
the life and feeling
out of the rest of its being.

i just told my friend...
restless goodbye: you just have to ignore your heart
restless goodbye: that is the only way to do it
restless goodbye: because emotions are lame. you will be happiest if you ignore all emotions (becuase they are temporary) and just make yourself have fun. pure and simple fun.

it seems i have begun to freeze my emotions.

sam was home for the day. so we went out for coffee (but ended up just getting cokes)we sat around and talked. we went to the dickies store, we went to a used bookstore, we sat around and talked some more. sam put me in a very nice mood. i was happy to not feel so sad. then meryl called me and we hung out. we went to the movies and saw, down ( Read more... )

i am starting over.
and the time is now.