Supernatural Finale (Last one, guys, I promise)
*takes a deep breath* Okay.
...I feel genuinely crushed.
It was a great episode. It really was. Cas and Bobby lived - Sam is even there in some weird, hovery-maybe-I'm-still-Samifer way.
But as far as Dean knows, Sam is GONE FOREVER and he'll never get to tell him how proud he is of him or give him a hug or call him a bitch or watch the stars with him again and his little brother is in hell and he can't help him because he PROMISED and I just can't fucking TAKE this.
I feel ridiculous to be so emotionally affected. This could have gone SO much worse than it did, it leaves SO many different pathways to take (both in fanon and canon) - I love what I've seen of Lisa and Ben is a cool kid and I want them and Dean to be bffs and a good family but I can only imagine how Dean must be feeling and I read this fic right after and I... am having trouble being reasonable about this and using my perception.
I have no idea how I'm going to go about the Dean/Cas Big Bang, now - I still will SOMEHOW, but. IDK. I need to think.
In slightly happier news, OMFG Jared Padalecki is AMAZING. That performance... the tiny nuances and differences between when he was Lucifer and when he was Sam... and the emotionality of it all, he must have been SO. TIRED.
...I think I never realized before quite how much I love Sam. I mean, I knew I loved the boy, and I didn't do that whole "Dean-Girl"/"Sam-Girl" thing but if I had I probably would've called myself a Dean-girl but dear god, SAMMY. I miss you bb. You are so much more than you think you are and you always TRIED and oh my god please be happy somehow.
I don't know how the thing with Lisa and Ben is going to work out. For better or for worse, it's going to be really bloody difficult before anything else happens. Dean is NOT in the right mindset to be anything for anyone right now and if he just foists his lost feelings over Sam to Ben and Lisa THAT IS NOT HEALTHY, DEAN. Still, I have my hopes for him.
Bobby's soul, anyone? But whatever. He and Crowley should totally become BFFs. I would laugh. And cheer.
Chuck? What? That's... kind of awesome. But I also loved you as a frumpy-hermitty-human.
CAS. He'd BETTER be back next season - if not there will be words.
Bring on the fic, fandom - Sweet, life giving fic.
...I feel genuinely crushed.
It was a great episode. It really was. Cas and Bobby lived - Sam is even there in some weird, hovery-maybe-I'm-still-Samifer way.
But as far as Dean knows, Sam is GONE FOREVER and he'll never get to tell him how proud he is of him or give him a hug or call him a bitch or watch the stars with him again and his little brother is in hell and he can't help him because he PROMISED and I just can't fucking TAKE this.
I feel ridiculous to be so emotionally affected. This could have gone SO much worse than it did, it leaves SO many different pathways to take (both in fanon and canon) - I love what I've seen of Lisa and Ben is a cool kid and I want them and Dean to be bffs and a good family but I can only imagine how Dean must be feeling and I read this fic right after and I... am having trouble being reasonable about this and using my perception.
I have no idea how I'm going to go about the Dean/Cas Big Bang, now - I still will SOMEHOW, but. IDK. I need to think.
In slightly happier news, OMFG Jared Padalecki is AMAZING. That performance... the tiny nuances and differences between when he was Lucifer and when he was Sam... and the emotionality of it all, he must have been SO. TIRED.
...I think I never realized before quite how much I love Sam. I mean, I knew I loved the boy, and I didn't do that whole "Dean-Girl"/"Sam-Girl" thing but if I had I probably would've called myself a Dean-girl but dear god, SAMMY. I miss you bb. You are so much more than you think you are and you always TRIED and oh my god please be happy somehow.
I don't know how the thing with Lisa and Ben is going to work out. For better or for worse, it's going to be really bloody difficult before anything else happens. Dean is NOT in the right mindset to be anything for anyone right now and if he just foists his lost feelings over Sam to Ben and Lisa THAT IS NOT HEALTHY, DEAN. Still, I have my hopes for him.
Bobby's soul, anyone? But whatever. He and Crowley should totally become BFFs. I would laugh. And cheer.
Chuck? What? That's... kind of awesome. But I also loved you as a frumpy-hermitty-human.
CAS. He'd BETTER be back next season - if not there will be words.
Bring on the fic, fandom - Sweet, life giving fic.