I realise this is a really old entry (hell, you probably wont even notice this comment), but I just browsed over here to see if you had a new entry and was struck by this one...
Why? Because I know exactly how you feel. I don't have many medals, a handful or so, but mine are also all silver. Not a gold, and never a bronze. I remember thinking that it was odd (and yes in a way deafeating), but now I take solace from one thing...at least I was consistant.
Though, thinking back on that, is consistant what I really strive to be? I'm thinking no. Ok, gonna stop there before this becomes deep on someone's blog I barely know (!)
So yeah, basically I empathsise with your post, and hi :)
Holy Hell! This journal entry is ancient. I had no idea anyone even read this :D
Thanks for the comment and the support. Yeah, it's a bitch always being second. Knowing you are good enough and have what it takes, but there's always that one bastard who tops all your efforts by a little bit. Ah well, i've come to accept it a bit, I suppose. And you're right about consistency. It's something that is good to know for yourself but which won't get you anywhere.
Ah well, thanks for the comment, and "Hi" right back at you :)
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Why? Because I know exactly how you feel. I don't have many medals, a handful or so, but mine are also all silver. Not a gold, and never a bronze. I remember thinking that it was odd (and yes in a way deafeating), but now I take solace from one thing...at least I was consistant.
Though, thinking back on that, is consistant what I really strive to be? I'm thinking no. Ok, gonna stop there before this becomes deep on someone's blog I barely know (!)
So yeah, basically I empathsise with your post, and hi :)
Jen x
(Esmerelde on TES Forums)
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Thanks for the comment and the support. Yeah, it's a bitch always being second. Knowing you are good enough and have what it takes, but there's always that one bastard who tops all your efforts by a little bit. Ah well, i've come to accept it a bit, I suppose. And you're right about consistency. It's something that is good to know for yourself but which won't get you anywhere.
Ah well, thanks for the comment, and "Hi" right back at you :)
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