is not a feeling that I enjoy.  I am such a loser that it is ricdulous.  I only have maybe three friends. One lives another states, one lives across a bridge and another lives around the corner. I admit I have never had a lot of friends, but it sucks when you want to do stuff and there is no-one to do stuff with.  Sometimes I feel like the one ( Read more... )

I am so extremely happy right now!! Today we, meaning my family and I, went out and bought my graduation laptop!! It is an hp, and it's so pretty. Sleek black on teh outside and silver on teh inside with swirls. I have the cheezest grin my face right now. I have a computer in my room again!! I have been begging since chirstmas to get this sucker, ( Read more... )

seriously need to stop hurting people unintenionally. If you are sick and you told me you did not feel good, is it beneficial to your getting better for to play in doubles with me?? I even asked if you were feeling okay, and there was no definate answer to my question.  I did not mean to hurt you, but if I did I am truly sorry. I know you keep ( Read more... )

feel like I let my friends down last night.  I ended up being maad tired, and just kinda lying there on the bed.  I feel bad because we resolved everything, and there I was not doing anything.  My days have been catching up to me this week.  I did not even have a vacation.

hate me. My life is falling apart. I feel as if I am going to lose two more friendships. I am tired of being shunned or not included. Why can't "friends" be straight up with someone? I hate it soo much. I understand that sometimes I may hurt people, but if you do not tell me how am I soposed to change things?? Maybe I should just be like one of ( Read more... )

[x] know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] I keep track of dates using a calender.
[ ] I own more than one credit card.
[x] I know how to change the oil in a car.
[x] I do my own laundry.
[ ] I vote every election.
[x] I can cook for myself
[ ] I think politics are exciting.
[ ] I balance my checkbook.
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[x] I show up for school/college/work every day ( Read more... )

Je suis trisste. J'ai vu The Place Promised in Our Early Days ce aprés midi. Je pense mon amie n'est pas content avec moi.  Je suis desolée. Il me faut mon amie parce-que elle est mon seul amie.  Bon Aniversaire Amé!! Je suis 'lost' beacoup.  Je fatigué beacoup aussi. Je regrette...

it has been exactly one month to day since my 18th birthday.  I kinda feel bad that I actually have not updated in forever long.  AB Calculus has taken over my life.  Though right now it is tennis and calculus and I feel as if I do not have any time to sleep or relax. I have not even had the energy to write any fanfiction.  I had so many ideas in ( Read more... )

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so tired of everything. I wish I was not as confused as I am. It sucks that I am confused again. I have not even done anything but school and hang out with my friends. Sometimes I just wish it were August, that way I knew I would be having a fresh start somewhere, I miss it, and I do not know if I will ever have it again. I do not know, maybe life ( Read more... )