let's talk about Homeland.
Ugh. Okay. So first off let's talk about how I can't decide what I think about Nick Brody and whether or not he's a terrorist. I know there's a book this show is based off of and I DON'T WANT TO KNOW. I WANT TO WATCH AND FIND OUT. BUT. I DON'T WANT HIM TO BE A TERRORIST. I FEEL SO AWFUL. BUT IT MAKES SENSE AND THE EVIDENCE THAT'S COMING TO LIGHT. I DON'T KNOW. I DON'T KNOW.
Next, Jessica Brody. WOW. WOW. Okay. I know it's been hard for her, she's gone through EIGHT agonizing years on her own, she raised two kids alone and made her way for a really long time and she was finally, finally letting herself move on. She was going to officially tell the kids about her and Mike, because OF COURSE she fell for Mike, he was Brody's best friend. WHAT. EVER. WHATEVER. But all of that changed when Brody called home and she decided that she was going to cut things off with Mike and be with Brody. I can't tell if she's doing it out of duty or because she still loves Brody? I mean, I guess she does but it feels like SHE'S making everything awkward around him.
Did she THINK this was going to be easy? That Brody was going to be exactly like he was when he left? When he loved her? He's held onto memories for EIGHT years and she just watched him slip away while she was safe and protected by Mike. Did she think that he wouldn't have scars? That he wouldn't be different? I just. I don't understand her. HER THOUGHT PROCESS IS MIND BOGGLING TO ME. Like, be upfront with him, please. PLEASE. He DESERVES that. HE DOES.
And I feel bad that I'm like UGH. YOU'RE SUCH A BITCH because the first time they have sex he turns a little rapey. I DON'T KNOW. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL? SHOULD I IDENTIFY WITH HER. I WOULDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO IN HER SITUATION. I just want her to tell him so bad. I'm sick of her pussyfooting around it when he OBVIOUSLY knows or can tell. I want to know. I WANT TO SEE IT BLOW UP. I want them to be HONEST about it. Please, talk with me about this, pleeeeeease.
ugh obviously I only care about the Brody's because Carrie is such a fucking psychotic bitch but I can't tell if her paranoia is annoying, spot-on, or both. GOD AND SAUL. OH SAUL. SAAAAUUUUUUULLLLL. Mandy Patinkin is killing me with trying to be sweet even though he's a super shitty husband but he does love Mira? Meera? He wishes he could be better but he's so set in his ways and just because she wants to put down roots somewhere else doesn't mean they can't be together. I don't see how it would be any different than what they were doing then? I DON'T KNOW. I DON'T KNOW ENOUGH ABOUT THEIR RELATIONSHIP.
fuck. so many homeland feelings, this is just what I have now. ALL OF THE FEELINGS. DISCUSS YOUR FEELINGS WITH ME. PLEASE.
but anyway, Happy Halloween! I wore an awesome vest and fixed a door today. I am boss.
Also, Damian Lewis' face for all of the awards.