first, since i havent mentioned it, the friend that has been very supportive, and is disabled, buried her husband 3 weeks ago tomorrow. she had had a slight health scare from him the weekend before he died. pat had an incident that sounded very much like a minor heart attack, but he refused to go get checked out claiming it was probably something ( Read more... )

about my family. when was i going to tell them, were they going to be at the hospital? etc. well i was very direct to kathy and jen about my feelings pre-surgery and how it didnt matter to me if i survived, i didnt hide it, i wasnt in the mood to try to cover my feelings. they offered support but really-i didnt take it too seriously-what was there ( Read more... )

ive rested a lot and not done much except the lightest and most basic of household things. ive started gradually eating more to the point of overeating out of boredom. i havent been in very much pain or discomfort. i can take out trash, sort laundry, feed mr kitty, go for short walks outside, fix light meals, do dishes, and even handle shopping a ( Read more... )

i was supposed to go home monday so for once i got go about the day the way i felt like doing things, plus i wasnt being as closely monitored,i was just waiting for my okay to leave. i hadnt seen dr cloven at all sunday, just the nurses and the other resident, and i was still making great progress. my bandage had been removed saturday, plus i ( Read more... )

okay every time i have a high energy day, its followed by a low energy day..so sunday i was tired-but had slept better and i really wasnt wanting to do anything at all, i just wanted to be left alone. so again i got up, used the bathroom as needed, and took a shower-the shower went better this time and i felt more cleansed. i had breakfast, two ( Read more... )

i was awakened early morning, and i was made to attempt to stand up, to be weighed. this was a bit interesting since i wasnt sure how much i could really do and i was still very tired, but i slowly made it up okay and the pain was tolerable, and i didnt accidently yank out any tubes. i was allowed to rest some more and informed that i could try a ( Read more... )

i was going to tell about the whole hospital experience ( Read more... )

from dr cloven's nurse, the pathology results are back, i'm okay...so no cancer... :)

i'm rather tired but long story short, (for now anyway...), i am doing quite well. my mood was decent friday for surgery, no qualms, no deliberate sabotauge, no worries, no depression or anger, or anything remotely negative, but i felt a rather amused tolerance, with a touch of smart-ass thrown in. i felt pretty good, my pre-op stuff was all good, ( Read more... )

ive been a pain in the ass about this whole thing..with my moods all over the place..but i appreciate all your support and good wishes... :) and yeah things will go okay today ( Read more... )