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The art school is supposed to have the letters of acceptance or rejection sent out to arrive by the 22nd. I'm almost glad I'm not going to be home.
The question becomes, what do I do? Try for early graduation or testing out of subjects? Ask for delayed admission?
Tezuka is pursuing his dream. I'm not entirely sure if this is my dream (or if I have a particular dream) but I do know if I just stay here I'll get farther and farther behind him. I want to chase him, I want to be better than him, I want him to acknowledge me. I just don't think tennis is the means by which I want all of that.
What connects me to Tezuka besides tennis? Other than the feelings I have for him and he for me? I have to find it.
I think I need some sleep. I'm both feeling and thinking very random things.