I did. I couldn't keep it in if I could. Anyways, I did, and apparently I heard (from Seabass & Mike) that he isn't going anymore.
And I should be happy right? But I'm more...scared.
I really don't want to hold him back from anything he REALLY wants to do. And I TOLD him that he could go, but I just wouldn't like it. So even though I got what I "want" I feel bad because WHAT THE HELL IS HE GONNA DO NOW. I do appreciate that he considered how I felt (he was meh about the price) and made a decision from that, but at the same time I'm scared he's whipping himself to me, cuz I'm his first and he's not that confrontational anyways. I'm scared he'll resent me later when he realizes that YES, he really did want to go to mexico, and I "made" him stay. I'm scared of how much he likes me, because I don't want him to be unhappy by trying to make me happy.
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And I should be happy right? But I'm more...scared.
I really don't want to hold him back from anything he REALLY wants to do. And I TOLD him that he could go, but I just wouldn't like it. So even though I got what I "want" I feel bad because WHAT THE HELL IS HE GONNA DO NOW. I do appreciate that he considered how I felt (he was meh about the price) and made a decision from that, but at the same time I'm scared he's whipping himself to me, cuz I'm his first and he's not that confrontational anyways. I'm scared he'll resent me later when he realizes that YES, he really did want to go to mexico, and I "made" him stay. I'm scared of how much he likes me, because I don't want him to be unhappy by trying to make me happy.
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