Fic: Green, Gold, and Things Unseen
Title: Green, Gold, and Things Unseen
Author: Elyse
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Through The Harriet Dinner (part one)
Pairing: Matt/Harriet, Lucas/Harriet
Summary: Immediately after the awards ceremony Harriet calls Luke because the last thing she wants tonight is to be alone, wanting Matt.
Immediately after the awards ceremony Harriet calls Luke because the last thing she wants tonight is to be alone, wanting Matt. Luke, being the most obvious method of comfort, always manages to at least say the right things, even if she doesn't always believe him.
When he picks her up he expounds lines about beautiful brown eyes and golden hair that are, well, lines. The important thing is Luke kisses her like he means it, and when she kisses him back she keeps her eyes shut tightly and tries not to think about Matt and Christmas and coconut snow.
It's the simple things that she's losing in the day to day battles she has with Matt just for the sake of having something (anything really) with him. It's her most treasured moments that are becoming lost.
Spending languid, delicious, Saturdays lounging in bed together.
"I love the green and gold flecks in your eyes," he told her once.
"No," she closed the small distance between them. "See? Just brown."
"Let me get a better look." He kissed her and soft and sweet. "No," he pulled away gently. "I definitely see green and gold."
"Sneaking away?" Luke raises a groggy head from his pillow.
Harriet doesn't lie, only to herself, not to other people. She stops yet remains silent.
"Because you still love Matt?"
Silence.
"Harriet, what Matt did to you last night was the internet equivalent of marking his territory, he may as well have just pissed all over you so no other man could have you."
"Well, I'm really not into that sort of thing." She meant it to be a joke, it comes off weak.
"C'me here," he gestures for her to come back to him. She finds herself kissing him again, though she had no intentions beyond last night.
The jagged, broken, light of day greets her as she leaves Luke's house. Now she knows it's not the end of this - whatever this is. Somehow, and she's not exactly sure how, she has found herself to be in the same position she was in six years ago.
It's only been six years since the first time she broke up with Matt. They were young and relatively unfamous and a lot more fun. Six years of makeup -breakup-you're wrong-no you are-I guess it doesn't matter-I love you-I need you-can we just talk about this later. Now she just feels old.
Some days she hears her biological clock ticking a little more loudly than others. There are days she envies Jordan for the life growing inside of her. The idea for Jenny Doesn't Have a Baby certainly didn't come from Matt.
Harriet tells herself it doesn't matter that it's Matt who sees the flecks of green and gold in her eyes (or he used to). That it's Matt who sees who she really is (or he used to).
The future is jagged and broken. Matt sees green and gold in her eyes that really isn't there, or maybe it's only there when he is. Either way, she believes him. Luke says the right things and she pretends to believe him. He never will see the green and gold in her eyes.
Author: Elyse
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Through The Harriet Dinner (part one)
Pairing: Matt/Harriet, Lucas/Harriet
Summary: Immediately after the awards ceremony Harriet calls Luke because the last thing she wants tonight is to be alone, wanting Matt.
Immediately after the awards ceremony Harriet calls Luke because the last thing she wants tonight is to be alone, wanting Matt. Luke, being the most obvious method of comfort, always manages to at least say the right things, even if she doesn't always believe him.
When he picks her up he expounds lines about beautiful brown eyes and golden hair that are, well, lines. The important thing is Luke kisses her like he means it, and when she kisses him back she keeps her eyes shut tightly and tries not to think about Matt and Christmas and coconut snow.
It's the simple things that she's losing in the day to day battles she has with Matt just for the sake of having something (anything really) with him. It's her most treasured moments that are becoming lost.
Spending languid, delicious, Saturdays lounging in bed together.
"I love the green and gold flecks in your eyes," he told her once.
"No," she closed the small distance between them. "See? Just brown."
"Let me get a better look." He kissed her and soft and sweet. "No," he pulled away gently. "I definitely see green and gold."
"Sneaking away?" Luke raises a groggy head from his pillow.
Harriet doesn't lie, only to herself, not to other people. She stops yet remains silent.
"Because you still love Matt?"
Silence.
"Harriet, what Matt did to you last night was the internet equivalent of marking his territory, he may as well have just pissed all over you so no other man could have you."
"Well, I'm really not into that sort of thing." She meant it to be a joke, it comes off weak.
"C'me here," he gestures for her to come back to him. She finds herself kissing him again, though she had no intentions beyond last night.
The jagged, broken, light of day greets her as she leaves Luke's house. Now she knows it's not the end of this - whatever this is. Somehow, and she's not exactly sure how, she has found herself to be in the same position she was in six years ago.
It's only been six years since the first time she broke up with Matt. They were young and relatively unfamous and a lot more fun. Six years of makeup -breakup-you're wrong-no you are-I guess it doesn't matter-I love you-I need you-can we just talk about this later. Now she just feels old.
Some days she hears her biological clock ticking a little more loudly than others. There are days she envies Jordan for the life growing inside of her. The idea for Jenny Doesn't Have a Baby certainly didn't come from Matt.
Harriet tells herself it doesn't matter that it's Matt who sees the flecks of green and gold in her eyes (or he used to). That it's Matt who sees who she really is (or he used to).
The future is jagged and broken. Matt sees green and gold in her eyes that really isn't there, or maybe it's only there when he is. Either way, she believes him. Luke says the right things and she pretends to believe him. He never will see the green and gold in her eyes.