so, i got an adorable little "nudge" by an awesome livejournal friend to remind me its been almost two months since i last posted!! i wont let that happen again, darlin'.

i have so much to post about. im gonna take this weekend to do that. talk to you soon, love!

oh and i see your birthday is coming soon, ps!

IM GETTING A NEW PUPPY!!!!!!!!!!!! he will never be jake...but i will love him just as much. we are picking him up from this amish breeder tomorrow in lancaster. YOU SHOULD SEE HOW CUTE. same type of dog as jake and same color. omg, i have the best fucking dad ever! pictures will be up as soon as possible.

its amazing how watching something happen in someone else's life, even someone who doesnt really exist, can alter your own. and sometimes it can make you more appreciative (or appreciate it at all) of events that are taking place and other times it can make you feel like you arent worthy of even the slightest bit of affection, sorrow or existence ( Read more... )

im calling out of work tonight and im very nervous about it. i just dont like doing things like that anymore. its so weird that i even care now, because i used to call out of work like twice a week no matter what the circumstances ( Read more... )

its horrible that i mostly live out my days worrying about losing someone i love. and because i can barely cry anymore, all it takes is one little thing on one certain day, and the waterworks just wont stop ( Read more... )

i watched K-PAX last night and it was such a great movie. nothing that i expected...really moving. the ending was completely out of nowhere ...it was great. i recommend everyone watching it ( Read more... )

she didnt understand. i, for the first time am taking the steps i need to take to get myself out of this 6 year slump. i refuse, absolutely refuse, to be the person ive been. the real me is in here somewhere and FINALLY she is starting to shine through. i need to prove to myself and what my life is worth that i can do all of this, be sane and happy ( Read more... )

...in spite of everything, I still believe that people are really good at heart. I simply can't build up my hopes on a foundation consisting of confusion, misery, and death. I see the world gradually being turned into a wilderness, I hear the ever approaching thunder, which will destroy us too, I can feel the sufferings of millions and yet, if I ( Read more... )

my depressive days are so few and far between that when i do have one or two, it nearly kills me. is that really healthy? probably not...but its better than feeling like im dying everyday ( Read more... )

Husband and wife are waiting at the bus stop with their nine children. A blind man joins them after a few minutes. When the bus arrives, they find it overloaded and only the wife and the nine kids are able to fit onto the bus ( Read more... )