I'm not eating till I can talk to you. It's like a win win...thing you dont get to talk to me..I get smaller and then ..if you do then weee =D I have lots to say on this topic i just need...bleh...i need energy. ....fuck this whole situation
Maybe I became so good at faking happiness i made myself believe i was. I have been thinking a lot lately about how easy it would be and it doesn't scare me anymore.
I have that feeling again I don't want any kind of human interaction, im just not feeling it. the longer i go without it the stronger the want is i need a moment to break.
Mmmm I love fall =] makes me want to cuddle. I hate swollen eyes though ick. I don't even know why im updating this thinggg I m not in ramble mood oh well =]
So apparently i'm never going to be happy there's always going to be that part of me that wants to destroy me. I can deal with that but can I live with it?