The past three weeks have worn me the F..K out. I'm feeling better but very isolationist. Luckily this will give me time to work on several writing/research projects in addition to my homework. I'll be on trak and in the gym tomorrow. That is a good thing. I can tell the stress is getting to me because I am craving fried food and beer. Always a ( Read more... )

Yesterday I had an experience that made me look at people differently. I lost my paycheck on the way to the bank. A bitch and a half, I know. My only consolation/hope was that it was destroyed and not found. God only knows what somone would do with it ( Read more... )

People do not grow up they just get more serious in the games they play. The fear of leaving youth behind has gotten to the point that what is considered to be an "Adult" is no more than a teenager with an over inflated sense of entitlement and an age to justify their attitude ( Read more... )

Things have been hectic lately but luckily my nerves are holding. I think the gym helps a lot and I cant wait to get in there tonight as well ( Read more... )

Well I crawled in to Wallyworld today. Grudginly that is. I just should have stayed at Charlies with Madhuri last night. I am getting tired of a certain someone's self destruction. I mean a little weekend debauchery is expected but this continued Jihad against ones liver has got to go! It WAS cute now it's bordering on pitiful. I guess I'll deal ( Read more... )

Well not because I am a good little worker bee, I just need to get out in this cold clear weather! Today is one of those days that brings about somber that weird comforting melancholia I've gron accusomed to. Although things are more complex now. I fell positive yet disassociated. Tonight it could be Gin or Gym and I'll be just fine ( Read more... )

I am in my office, bored witless, unchallenged and feeling I deserve more. I am getting back into that satate where time at the gym or doing schoolwaork is the best time of the day. I cant wait to workout tonight (it's a weight day!) so I can get sore again. I love that! Jesus maybe I'm getting kinky(er). Look what the office does to ones mind!

High Proteine, Low fat and a little suffering.
Yep tomorrow is my first day in the gym. I can't wait. I think the workouts will do a lot for ty state of mind as well. Since it IS DARK all the damn time!

Well I saw two movies this weekend. the Documentary on the artist R.Crumb. I'd heard about the movie but that couldnot prepare me. It's like watching Tod Solondz "Happiness" only is a doc so the impact is greater. Still it's a good film...just makes me know FOR shure I dont want kids ( Read more... )

Guess what? nothing morbid this time around ( Read more... )