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This wasn’t the Underworld ( Read more... ) -
Sliver of parchment through the window
In the last week, I've spoken with all three of my exes.
It's a strange headspace to be in, to have all three of them liking me, supporting me, wanting the best for me.
Is that normal?
Aren't people supposed to hate their exes?
Or am I too nice? -
We Appreciate Power
This song is very much outside my current normal, but it has certainly struck a chord with me.
It is thematically relevant for my autobiography.
The sci-fi and astronomical aesthetics are relevant for four of the women in my life.
But the theme. Shades of Heather, where the tussle of power dynamics was playful and a massive part of the entire -
Der Herr Gott Gibt: the Unterwelt II
The skeletons were shattered in pieces around me, and several colourful gems fell among their crumpled remains ( Read more... ) -
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I’m feeling strange connections with who I was in 1995/6 ( Read more... ) -
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So an English girl describes me as ‘...more polite than the English’.
It’s a central tension in my life.
Passivity and niceness vs assertiveness and aggression.
It keeps coming back to that nexus. -
Interesting
I’ve been commissioned for my first paid article on political/social commentary.
It’s slightly vindicating. I’ve spent much of my life sharing my views online and it’s just starting to tip over into ‘paid for’ territory.
Whilst thoroughly enjoyable, it does tamper with my time frame of working on my autobiography.
I can only do my best. -
Autobiography Goal
I'm very much enjoying writing my auto and it's been a helpful process ( Read more... ) -
Domicile
I spent most of this evening re-arranging furniture and cleaning.
I’ve done my time living in a dungeon.
Never again. -
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I have never loved chaos so much.
Peterson was right, the prophet of order.
You transcend defeat when every outcome is a success.
You need prophets.
They see the fractals in the fractures.
My. Brain. Struggles.
To explain what I can see.
I will tell you.
I am in chaos, and it is home, because this place I will tame.
That is what I am for
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