Third Chain
Pairing : YamaJima 8D
Genre : romance, life? :\
Rating : too mature for a child and too childish for an adult /shot
Note : major failed and grammatical error everywhere :| this one start with Yama's POV and in midway, third people POV
Summary : yuto's struggle to find out why yamada act coldly to him
Don’t go kaa-chan! Tou-chan! Why you left me alone here?! Tou-chan! Kaa-chan!
“Tou-chan…”
No one was there. no one in this room.
“yume ka…” I sighed.
Why they left me alone here? Do they hate me? What have I done? Forgive me…
I tried to sit up, but my body refused and pushed me to the bed again. I sighed again, until I realized there was a hand gripped my right hand, and the owner of it was asleep.
Nakajima yuto.
Even though I have been rude on him, he still…
“don’t cry…” he looked at me, his hand still gripping my right hand.
I quickly looked away.
“why should I listen to you?” okay, I am being rude again…
At my eyes corner, I could see him, smiling faintly, “because…” he hold my hand tighther, and I slowly turn at him.
“my heart hurts”
“don’t joke with me” I quickly pulled my hand, but he caught it again.
“I am so sorry”
“for what?”
“anything that make you hate me”
Silence
Why? Why he is being so kind, even though that I hate him so much? Why my heart flutters when I heard that words? Why? Oh damn, I must be crying again… I am such a weaklings…
“didn’t I tell you to don’t cry?”
He sat beside me after wiped my tears with his thumb.
“tell me…”
“eh?”
“tell me why my parents left me here?! Tell me why they never answered my call?! Tell me what happened actually! Why no one explained this for me?! What have I done?!”I screamed, out of my control, sobbing.
“ryosuke…”
Then, I laughed, caused yuto to looked at me like I was drove crazy.
“now I have no parents, no family…”
“ryosuke…” he looked at me with sad eyes “stop this, you are hurting yourself”
“everyone is hating me !”
“I AM NOT!”
He pushed me to the wall, pinched my hands to the wall, starred at me directly.
“I am here, and I will protect you, caress you, hug you,” he paused for awhile.
“love you like your parents did”
And with that words, he kissed me tenderly, on my lips.
I cried again, not sure why, but its kind of relaxed feeling inside my chest. I closed my eyes. This time I didn’t push him, and let myself enjoy the warmness as my something warm ran down my cheeks.
~-~-~-~-~
*started here, using neither yama nor yuto’s POV :D*
Two of them were eating silently in the dinner room. There were only two of them, food, and a butler.
“Thank you for the food” yamada said as he put his chopsticks on the table, then walked away from the table.
“ryosuke” a call from yuto stopped the boy from pushing the door
“what?”
“eto… can I visit you later?”
“why asking ? this is your house right?”yamada said as he laughed wryly. Then he walked out the room, walking through the corridor, before he finally entered his only sanctuary in that house. He curled up himself into a ball on the bed. some sadness still filled his chest.
Then, he remembered. Yuto’s lips, wondered why he didn’t holding back at that moment. His fingers unconciously traced his lips, where yuto’s lips kissed just now. Then he imagined how that hand with long fingers will trace his body, along with his warm breath, and…
“ryosuke, can I go in?” yamada quickly snapped back when yuto’s voice was heard.
“ye-yeah”
Yuto walked to his bed and sat there, “say ryosuke, do you have any sickness?”
Yamada looked up in confused yet lost.
“I don’t know” he simply answered.
“you… what? But when we first met...”
The younger boy laughed, “the doctor said it. Can we really know what happened inside our body?”
Yuto looked at the older one, confused. This guy, he is so strange indeed… is he stressed out or what?
“ryosuke…”
“nani?” he replied, looked up to the ceiling
“if there’s something on your mind, you know, you can tell me”
Yamada didn’t reply. Instead, he smirked and looked up to the ceiling, ignored Yuto.
Realized he couldn’t do anything at the moment, he said, “oyasumi” as he stepped out from the room.
Yamada could tell that yuto had went out from the sound of the closed door. He closed his eyes, preventing the tears from pouring out.
Don’t ever dare to hope ryosuke. Hoping more means more pain.
~-~-~-~-~
Yuto closed the door behind him, reaching for a white-red book in his table, flipping through it.
“why he looked like doesn’t care…? The way he is talking…” he mumbled.
Now if I thought about it, I never saw him with his friend. He always alone. Why? Is he a loner or… not popular? He always alone in the library, park, canteen, everywhere I saw him.
Yuto slammed the book at the table, frustately, messing his hair up.
There’s many thing I need to investigate.
Yuto reached for his laptop and started to type.
~-~-~-~-~
| on the way to school, at car |
Yamada was looking outside the car window, didn’t realize that yuto was starring at him the whole time.
What if I asked about ‘that’?
“say… ryosuke, how about meeting your parents tonight?”
The younger boy quickly turned to him, raised his eyebrow, “what?”
Yuto gulped. There was obviously he was angry, like ‘have you bored with your life on earth and and wish to go to heaven now?’
“well, you miss your parents right? we can go to your house tonight so you can speak with them for a while…”
“No” he quickly cut.
Yuto’s eyes widenned, “why? didnt you miss your parents…”
“no matter what reason they had to send me to your house, I don’t care and I don’t wanna know”
A silence.
“okay…” Yuto whispered, in a volume that maybe only himself could hear. He looked at the younger boy again. He was facing the window, still not moving.
Yuto’s hand was stretched out. But midway, he pulled back his hand. Then leaned on his seat and went silent. He decided to not asked more than this. He didn’t want to add more pain to that boy.
~-~-~-~-~
“so what Sensei think?”
Nakajima Yuto was sitting in front of an old man with white coat. They were facing each other, separated by an oak wood table. There’s a board on the table, written, ‘Sasajima Kosuke | psychologist’.
The old man smiled a little and tucked his glasses.
“Nakajima-san, I believe what happened to that friend of yours is a something simple, really simple.”
Yuto raised his eyebrow, “what do you mean… sensei?”
Sasajima-sensei sighed before he talked again, “you surely can understand him, once you learned what its like on his shoes”
“but he doesn’t want to talk to me about it”
“according to my analysis, one of the cause of it is fear of being rejected, fear of being hurt. that explained why he wasn’t open to you, why he was act coldly to you, why he seems like doesn’t care about his parents, why he is always alone” the doctor stopped first, before continue his talk, “maybe in the past, he asked or hope for something, then it couldn’t be granted. It made him afraid to hope again. That’s why he prefer being alone, he thought it wont made him want something. That explains why he is so sarcastic to you, because he is afraid that you wont accept him”
Yuto was speechless after listened to the doctor’s speech. That boy is fragile, like a glass. And now his heart is broken. Even though that they can glue it again, it couldn’t back to its normal state.
“Sensei, what should I do?”
Sasajima-sensei smiled, “for people like him, they need love”
~-~-~-~-~
|the next morning|
“Love ka…” Yuto whispered to himself as he walked through the school corridor during break time. It was no long until one of a boy in Yamada’s class come with Yuto’s so-called comrade.
“Nakajima-san, here I brought a person” he bowed to Yuto, with the confused boy beside him.
“Arigatou, Okamoto-kun” he said before turned to the boy beside Keito, “Nice to meet you, I am Nakajima Yuto”
The boy bowed, “nice to meet you too. Kamiki Ryunosuke here”
“so… Kamiki-kun, have Okamoto-kun told you why I called here?”
The boy nodded, “I have to tell you everything that I know about Yamada-kun, who is in the same class with me”
Yuto nodded, “before that, shall we move to a more comfortable place to talk?”
Kamiki shook his head and smiled, “all I know about Yamada-kun is, he looks like avoiding people. I ever try to talk to him, and his respond is good. However, the next day, he seems like avoiding… what you call it? Giving space? I guess”
“is he popular among the teacher?”
“not really. He rarely stands out and talk in front of the people”
As Sasajima-sensei said.
Yuto stretched his hand to that Kamiki guy, “Thank you very much for your kind explanation, Kamiki-kun”
~-~-~-~-~
| Yamada’s room |
Yamada couldn’t call today a good day at all. Running through school’s ground and having warming up and such for today PE drained his energy. He was close to passed out.
Luckily I managed to pulled it off.
He let his body fell to the bed with his uniform on. Headache caused by the heat, feeling sick and worn out, the boy was slowly drifted to the dreamland…
Sleeping so peacefully, even not realizing someone came into his room.
Yuto stood there, looking at the boy, and went smiling.
Really, this guy… he looks so pretty and…
Unsecure.
Nakajima Yuto, get hold of yourself. Raping him when sleeping, surely not a way to get his trust.
He walked to the bed, wanted to wake the boy up. The moment he touched the boy’s hand, he realized that it feels hot.
“who…” yamada groaned, then stopped his word the moment he realized what / who disturbed his sleep.
“I… I just wanna greet you just now, and I found you were sleeping with your uniform on, I just wanted to wake you up…” yuto said, not really sure himself.
“Thank you for reminding” he groaned again while stretching his body and went to the sit position.
“are you feeling sick?”
“its because of the stupid heat”
“you shouldn’t attent the PE class, then”
“I don’t like it if people see me spoiled”
Yuto’s eyes widened for a second, then he smiled faintly again. Yamada is sure stone-headed.
Without realizing it, Yuto was hugging the older boy the next second. His hand stroke the Yamada’s hair gently, again and again. He could felt the warmth of him in his arm. That kind of warmth that asked, ‘please hold me’.
“relax, relax~ and rest Ryosuke. I will not let you go until you fell asleep, I promise” yuto laughed and continue his stroke.
Yamada didn’t answer. He was about to push him just now, but the secure feeling when he was hugged by this person… he wanna enjoy it. So he put his hands on Yuto’s chest, relaxed his body and leaned his face on Yuto’s shoulder, and went asleep while inhaling Yuto’s smell.
~-~-~-~-~
Yamada slowly opened his eyes. His headache had been better. And he need a few minutes before he realized someone was hugging him. no other than Yuto.
Both he and Yuto was laying on the bed, facing each other. Yuto was sleeping, but his hand was still on Yamada’s hair like before.
I guess I am little bit touched he didn’t go even after I went asleep. Its like the first time when I passed out, his hand on me.
Yamada decided to lean closer and watch Yuto sleeping. Out of his mind, he didn’t want that moment to end.
[ end of the third part ]
FINALLY I HAVE INTERNET CONNECTION TO POST THIS CHAP. SAY YAY. 8D
umm, yeah. it took so long to me to finish this chap =w= i write, then delete and write and delete again because i was not satisfied enough. finally.
Thanks to those that patiently wait <3 gomen ne ._. please tell me what you think about this chapter, and tell me if this short or long too?
add : i feel like isolated from jump fandom these days because no internet connection, plus it feels like its getting harder even to download avi version of jump perf for my mini lappie .w. even tho i managed to found it. fandom had changed huh?
Genre : romance, life? :\
Rating : too mature for a child and too childish for an adult /shot
Note : major failed and grammatical error everywhere :| this one start with Yama's POV and in midway, third people POV
Summary : yuto's struggle to find out why yamada act coldly to him
Don’t go kaa-chan! Tou-chan! Why you left me alone here?! Tou-chan! Kaa-chan!
“Tou-chan…”
No one was there. no one in this room.
“yume ka…” I sighed.
Why they left me alone here? Do they hate me? What have I done? Forgive me…
I tried to sit up, but my body refused and pushed me to the bed again. I sighed again, until I realized there was a hand gripped my right hand, and the owner of it was asleep.
Nakajima yuto.
Even though I have been rude on him, he still…
“don’t cry…” he looked at me, his hand still gripping my right hand.
I quickly looked away.
“why should I listen to you?” okay, I am being rude again…
At my eyes corner, I could see him, smiling faintly, “because…” he hold my hand tighther, and I slowly turn at him.
“my heart hurts”
“don’t joke with me” I quickly pulled my hand, but he caught it again.
“I am so sorry”
“for what?”
“anything that make you hate me”
Silence
Why? Why he is being so kind, even though that I hate him so much? Why my heart flutters when I heard that words? Why? Oh damn, I must be crying again… I am such a weaklings…
“didn’t I tell you to don’t cry?”
He sat beside me after wiped my tears with his thumb.
“tell me…”
“eh?”
“tell me why my parents left me here?! Tell me why they never answered my call?! Tell me what happened actually! Why no one explained this for me?! What have I done?!”I screamed, out of my control, sobbing.
“ryosuke…”
Then, I laughed, caused yuto to looked at me like I was drove crazy.
“now I have no parents, no family…”
“ryosuke…” he looked at me with sad eyes “stop this, you are hurting yourself”
“everyone is hating me !”
“I AM NOT!”
He pushed me to the wall, pinched my hands to the wall, starred at me directly.
“I am here, and I will protect you, caress you, hug you,” he paused for awhile.
“love you like your parents did”
And with that words, he kissed me tenderly, on my lips.
I cried again, not sure why, but its kind of relaxed feeling inside my chest. I closed my eyes. This time I didn’t push him, and let myself enjoy the warmness as my something warm ran down my cheeks.
~-~-~-~-~
*started here, using neither yama nor yuto’s POV :D*
Two of them were eating silently in the dinner room. There were only two of them, food, and a butler.
“Thank you for the food” yamada said as he put his chopsticks on the table, then walked away from the table.
“ryosuke” a call from yuto stopped the boy from pushing the door
“what?”
“eto… can I visit you later?”
“why asking ? this is your house right?”yamada said as he laughed wryly. Then he walked out the room, walking through the corridor, before he finally entered his only sanctuary in that house. He curled up himself into a ball on the bed. some sadness still filled his chest.
Then, he remembered. Yuto’s lips, wondered why he didn’t holding back at that moment. His fingers unconciously traced his lips, where yuto’s lips kissed just now. Then he imagined how that hand with long fingers will trace his body, along with his warm breath, and…
“ryosuke, can I go in?” yamada quickly snapped back when yuto’s voice was heard.
“ye-yeah”
Yuto walked to his bed and sat there, “say ryosuke, do you have any sickness?”
Yamada looked up in confused yet lost.
“I don’t know” he simply answered.
“you… what? But when we first met...”
The younger boy laughed, “the doctor said it. Can we really know what happened inside our body?”
Yuto looked at the older one, confused. This guy, he is so strange indeed… is he stressed out or what?
“ryosuke…”
“nani?” he replied, looked up to the ceiling
“if there’s something on your mind, you know, you can tell me”
Yamada didn’t reply. Instead, he smirked and looked up to the ceiling, ignored Yuto.
Realized he couldn’t do anything at the moment, he said, “oyasumi” as he stepped out from the room.
Yamada could tell that yuto had went out from the sound of the closed door. He closed his eyes, preventing the tears from pouring out.
Don’t ever dare to hope ryosuke. Hoping more means more pain.
~-~-~-~-~
Yuto closed the door behind him, reaching for a white-red book in his table, flipping through it.
“why he looked like doesn’t care…? The way he is talking…” he mumbled.
Now if I thought about it, I never saw him with his friend. He always alone. Why? Is he a loner or… not popular? He always alone in the library, park, canteen, everywhere I saw him.
Yuto slammed the book at the table, frustately, messing his hair up.
There’s many thing I need to investigate.
Yuto reached for his laptop and started to type.
~-~-~-~-~
| on the way to school, at car |
Yamada was looking outside the car window, didn’t realize that yuto was starring at him the whole time.
What if I asked about ‘that’?
“say… ryosuke, how about meeting your parents tonight?”
The younger boy quickly turned to him, raised his eyebrow, “what?”
Yuto gulped. There was obviously he was angry, like ‘have you bored with your life on earth and and wish to go to heaven now?’
“well, you miss your parents right? we can go to your house tonight so you can speak with them for a while…”
“No” he quickly cut.
Yuto’s eyes widenned, “why? didnt you miss your parents…”
“no matter what reason they had to send me to your house, I don’t care and I don’t wanna know”
A silence.
“okay…” Yuto whispered, in a volume that maybe only himself could hear. He looked at the younger boy again. He was facing the window, still not moving.
Yuto’s hand was stretched out. But midway, he pulled back his hand. Then leaned on his seat and went silent. He decided to not asked more than this. He didn’t want to add more pain to that boy.
~-~-~-~-~
“so what Sensei think?”
Nakajima Yuto was sitting in front of an old man with white coat. They were facing each other, separated by an oak wood table. There’s a board on the table, written, ‘Sasajima Kosuke | psychologist’.
The old man smiled a little and tucked his glasses.
“Nakajima-san, I believe what happened to that friend of yours is a something simple, really simple.”
Yuto raised his eyebrow, “what do you mean… sensei?”
Sasajima-sensei sighed before he talked again, “you surely can understand him, once you learned what its like on his shoes”
“but he doesn’t want to talk to me about it”
“according to my analysis, one of the cause of it is fear of being rejected, fear of being hurt. that explained why he wasn’t open to you, why he was act coldly to you, why he seems like doesn’t care about his parents, why he is always alone” the doctor stopped first, before continue his talk, “maybe in the past, he asked or hope for something, then it couldn’t be granted. It made him afraid to hope again. That’s why he prefer being alone, he thought it wont made him want something. That explains why he is so sarcastic to you, because he is afraid that you wont accept him”
Yuto was speechless after listened to the doctor’s speech. That boy is fragile, like a glass. And now his heart is broken. Even though that they can glue it again, it couldn’t back to its normal state.
“Sensei, what should I do?”
Sasajima-sensei smiled, “for people like him, they need love”
~-~-~-~-~
|the next morning|
“Love ka…” Yuto whispered to himself as he walked through the school corridor during break time. It was no long until one of a boy in Yamada’s class come with Yuto’s so-called comrade.
“Nakajima-san, here I brought a person” he bowed to Yuto, with the confused boy beside him.
“Arigatou, Okamoto-kun” he said before turned to the boy beside Keito, “Nice to meet you, I am Nakajima Yuto”
The boy bowed, “nice to meet you too. Kamiki Ryunosuke here”
“so… Kamiki-kun, have Okamoto-kun told you why I called here?”
The boy nodded, “I have to tell you everything that I know about Yamada-kun, who is in the same class with me”
Yuto nodded, “before that, shall we move to a more comfortable place to talk?”
Kamiki shook his head and smiled, “all I know about Yamada-kun is, he looks like avoiding people. I ever try to talk to him, and his respond is good. However, the next day, he seems like avoiding… what you call it? Giving space? I guess”
“is he popular among the teacher?”
“not really. He rarely stands out and talk in front of the people”
As Sasajima-sensei said.
Yuto stretched his hand to that Kamiki guy, “Thank you very much for your kind explanation, Kamiki-kun”
~-~-~-~-~
| Yamada’s room |
Yamada couldn’t call today a good day at all. Running through school’s ground and having warming up and such for today PE drained his energy. He was close to passed out.
Luckily I managed to pulled it off.
He let his body fell to the bed with his uniform on. Headache caused by the heat, feeling sick and worn out, the boy was slowly drifted to the dreamland…
Sleeping so peacefully, even not realizing someone came into his room.
Yuto stood there, looking at the boy, and went smiling.
Really, this guy… he looks so pretty and…
Unsecure.
Nakajima Yuto, get hold of yourself. Raping him when sleeping, surely not a way to get his trust.
He walked to the bed, wanted to wake the boy up. The moment he touched the boy’s hand, he realized that it feels hot.
“who…” yamada groaned, then stopped his word the moment he realized what / who disturbed his sleep.
“I… I just wanna greet you just now, and I found you were sleeping with your uniform on, I just wanted to wake you up…” yuto said, not really sure himself.
“Thank you for reminding” he groaned again while stretching his body and went to the sit position.
“are you feeling sick?”
“its because of the stupid heat”
“you shouldn’t attent the PE class, then”
“I don’t like it if people see me spoiled”
Yuto’s eyes widened for a second, then he smiled faintly again. Yamada is sure stone-headed.
Without realizing it, Yuto was hugging the older boy the next second. His hand stroke the Yamada’s hair gently, again and again. He could felt the warmth of him in his arm. That kind of warmth that asked, ‘please hold me’.
“relax, relax~ and rest Ryosuke. I will not let you go until you fell asleep, I promise” yuto laughed and continue his stroke.
Yamada didn’t answer. He was about to push him just now, but the secure feeling when he was hugged by this person… he wanna enjoy it. So he put his hands on Yuto’s chest, relaxed his body and leaned his face on Yuto’s shoulder, and went asleep while inhaling Yuto’s smell.
~-~-~-~-~
Yamada slowly opened his eyes. His headache had been better. And he need a few minutes before he realized someone was hugging him. no other than Yuto.
Both he and Yuto was laying on the bed, facing each other. Yuto was sleeping, but his hand was still on Yamada’s hair like before.
I guess I am little bit touched he didn’t go even after I went asleep. Its like the first time when I passed out, his hand on me.
Yamada decided to lean closer and watch Yuto sleeping. Out of his mind, he didn’t want that moment to end.
[ end of the third part ]
FINALLY I HAVE INTERNET CONNECTION TO POST THIS CHAP. SAY YAY. 8D
umm, yeah. it took so long to me to finish this chap =w= i write, then delete and write and delete again because i was not satisfied enough. finally.
Thanks to those that patiently wait <3 gomen ne ._. please tell me what you think about this chapter, and tell me if this short or long too?
add : i feel like isolated from jump fandom these days because no internet connection, plus it feels like its getting harder even to download avi version of jump perf for my mini lappie .w. even tho i managed to found it. fandom had changed huh?