OK. *lots of things going on* last night was something a little different. i don't want to get into the details or anything, but it was just different. for the first time i was ashamed to admit i wasn't a virgin. I LOVE SEX!! this i know, you all know that too. but for some reason last night i wanted to keep that to myself. i'm an experienced ( Read more... )

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GAWD!!!! It was so perfect. So close..all i had to do was just....i didn't even really have to put effort in moving, just kiss him. I just can't get over how perfect the moment was. really, it was one of those,"never going to happen again" moments. I really can't get over it and i know i won't until the next chance comes along. it's going to be ( Read more... )

Saturday I'm going to meet a guy I meet online. His name is Jas and he lives in Bowling Green. We've talked for maybe a week and already decided we want to meet. I'm nervous, scared, excited, and anxious. I've never done this before and he seems sincere. I've checked him out on myspace and he seems legit too. We've talked on the phone and ( Read more... )

I'm starting to get "cold feet" about the whole chris thing. I mean it's taking just a long time and it's making me realize that maybe i should just stay single for a while and figure out what it is that i really want and what i need, like with myself. I've never really gone this slow or whatever before and it makes me feel like a tramp that i just ( Read more... )

Ok. I don't really know where to start or really what to say. I guess I can start with the past couple of days and what's been going on ( Read more... )

I feel like such an idiot.

Ok Ok. So maybe I do want to date him, but it's been something I've been wanting for a long time. A God aweful long time. I was talking to Jeremy last night and I couldn't stop smiling and any time I would mention Chris I'd get mixed up and end up saying something stupid. He just said,"Well I can see how much he's distracting you." ::blush:: I ( Read more... )

I've had an amazing past couple of days. I guess it started on Saturday. I hung out with alyssa and chris (ugh uhuhuhuh) and jeremy over at steak and shake and then shortly afterwards me, chris and alyssa were just chillen at the apartment watching a movie and just hanging out. Everyone stayed the night. But what was really amazing was the next ( Read more... )

I'm beginning to regret leaving Matt. I really miss him and it's been so long since i've spent time with him. I decided that I can't be friends with him. It's too hard. I have all these feelings for him and being friends with him, i only get half the deal and I don't want half, i want it ALL. Especially when i know what it feels like to have it all ( Read more... )