my cell phone rang on saturday morning at 6am, after i had just managed to fall asleep from a 4:30am bedtime. drove to gaithersburg to meet Matt coming home from his 24 shift at the firehouse. crawled back into his big warm bed and slept til noon. we spent the blissful snowy weekend shirking anything even remotely productive, watching movies and ( Read more... )

i try to set new parameters at the beginning of every year. i love the idea of wiping the slate clean. however i prefer not to make "resolutions" as it prevents me from the inevitable dissapointment of self when they're broken. but general goals are healthy. so, in no specific order, here we go ( Read more... )

right before christmas i started feeling really sick. like i was high all the time: disoriented, dizzy, scrambled, and slow moving. it was kinda scary. almost every day i was having headaches. i saw a doctor twice. the first time he said it was my inner ear and the second he took blood and said it could be mold or carbon monoxide poisoning. yikes! ( Read more... )

I love the metallic scent of his skin. It's a smell I can almost taste. The texture of his thick, unruly hair underneath my fingers when he lays his head on my bare shoulder. He has the strength of water and the wind; ever flexible, whimsical, given to rare flashes of temper. He rests his head on the bare skin of my shoulder, as trusting as a child ( Read more... )

i believe that if it is 30 degrees or below there is no excuse for not having snow on the ground. it's officially Christmas Eve which means ritualistic house cleansing for the 20th annual Davis Family Christmas Party tomorrow night. whee ( Read more... )

My last full day was a week ago. Already the stomach problems that I've sruggled for the last 7 months have almost completely disappeared. i scrubbed and did a mangled job of re-caulking the bathroom, got my car's emissions tested, completely reorganized and cleaned my room, finished my holiday shopping, and watched several hours of movies while ( Read more... )

recovery is slower than i would like but faster than i expected. every time i see a group of kids on the metro that look even moderately like they're from a not upper-middle class neighborhood my heart rate jumps through the roof. all my senses are hammering away all day long; trying to sense the intent of every person who enters within a 7 foot ( Read more... )

this is my first night alone since the mugging ( Read more... )

across the street from my house is a large graveyard. it's always very nicely kept and i used to run on the paved paths during the day when i wanted peace and silence ( Read more... )

it's been a long long time. i'm back out of necessity and not necessarily desire. but i need to put myself somewhere. the website was short-lived blissful experience, and something i will HAVE to continue when i can actually afford the software for it. i love designing my own space, posting my own artwork and images ( Read more... )