So I'm watching reba McIntyre sing "So far away" and she did an amazing job. Dedicated to her friend that just died. And now I'm crying. Boy, it feels good to cry. Just one released tear that instantly moistens the over scrubbed face. All i've been doing recently is wantingto cry ( Read more... )

So i woke up with my legs sweating and roasting hot but the upper part of my body freezing, like literally shaking. So I went to my mom, lol she saw me and then took my temperature. 101.5. Ehh...so she told me to be in bed all day today. No prob. At least it's over break and not during school-I'd be suff...er...ing! and at least I'm not coughing as ( Read more... )

Yeah, so I am a little drunk and a little high-not from smoking though.I just feel good because I don't need certain things to make me happy. Just drungs. Lmao. Seriously though, I can't wait till I see myself on film so I can quit. Hehehehehe. I feel like such a hippie. I really want to listen to dark side of the moon....and o.O purring sounds ( Read more... )

Trying to think of what I should get pierced next. I'm highly against facial piercings. I think nose piercings are hot but not for me. (a metal booger there all the time?! Hell no.) I was seriously thinking about an eyebrow but then I thought that it would just bring more attention to the fact that I hardly pluck. Fuck >.< I don't want my clit ( Read more... )

So Kiyondra took "the list" from Sarah's house after the party and took it to rehearsal and made a big deal out of it, whih it really isn't because it was me and Sarah having an OCD moment where we needed to write down our thoughts. (We found out that both found out that we can't have discussions without writing some of it down) And "the list" just ( Read more... )

MY COUSIN JUST GOT ACCEPTED TO GRAND VALLEY STATE ON A FULL SCHOLARSHIP! Ahhhh! She is awesome! SO anyways come and see Joseph...you know you want to. I doubt I'll have nay time to write my bio paper this weekend. Shit. It's not just for me though it's for my gorup. Well, I might pull an all-nighter. Anywyas, this is a short update ( Read more... )

Cut last sunday cause I needed to. I'm a dick-I'm addicted to it. Heh anyways, then last night I found out that Kelcey cuts-lol the wrong way. She does it for the pain...I do it for the pleasure. Heh. She does it across on like, her actual arm, and legs. I do it on my wrist and down, but also across. It's the thrill of almost dying! Knowing you're ( Read more... )

So basically I'm crying because I'm hurting Tim and I know I can't reverse it. I want to cut soooo bad but I don't wnat to hurt him. I'm so pissed off at everything. I have just had a bad day ever since two weeks ago. It just made things worse when I heard that I missed Simon's little birthday party at rehearsal last night because I just had to do ( Read more... )

Heh...there's a new actress whose in commercials and kinda modeling named Sarah Morris.

So today I'm calling Sarah and Sam to see if they want to go shopping, and if not- I am just going to have to go by myself. My mom said she would loan me her debit card if i got the part lol and I did, so now I have a hundred dollar limit to spend on me and whoever else I wish. I gues this is a mini-musical thingy? I need at least one new bra, one ( Read more... )