it's amazing how now that I know another one is single,
all I can do is think of hanging out with him,
and hope that things go back to how they were.
I'm kinda butterfly-ish.

honestly, I'm excited for school ( Read more... )

my life is hella changed.
but I think for now, that's okay.
one thing hasn't changed at all though,
and it's about the red head.

it's all for him,
and I don't know if I can do this to myself again,
because this time, I know nothing will happen.

he said he could hurt me.
and he did for real this time.
my heart is 100% broken and I don't know what to do.
I supposed to be getting over him, giving up, and becoming his friend. but I'm not that kind of a girl. I'm so in love with him and it hurts me so bad.

I wish I was asexual.

school is tough ( Read more... )

FUCK RED HEADS.

wanna call him so bad.
I might end up doing it regardless of advice.

sami says yes.
I feel like I should apologize.
I don't want to leave being all... "mad"... at him.

never again am I participating in monday fun time.
hahaha.

regardless of the fact that we are soulmates,
I don't ever see boy being in love with me.

that thought depresses me.

god, I'm turning into a depressed 13 year old girl again. It's bad.

he doesn't hate me afterall ( Read more... )

let's see.
I still haven't talked to him, but he found it okay to text me last night at three AM and wake me up.
I don't mind. why would I?

blehhhh.

this week has been really good. I haven't been home too much, and now that I am, it's weird. I don't feel normal.
then again, when do I EVER feel normal?