it's kind of nice having the campus so quiet. i don't feel quite as schizophrenic with a few less people around. god, i'm so stressed tho still. i have no idea why this won't go away. i'd really like it to. i have officially bought my ticket to mexico so there is no turning back now. none whatsoever. which is exciting. we're breaking ronnie's ( Read more... )

been awhile since i posted in this thing. christmas is coming up. exciting stuff. i'm basically going to be spending every penny i have managed to save to go visit people. i'll be home for a bit, then to a state park with the parentals, then to indiana, then to ohio, then back to new mexico, then to real mexico. damn. my cash will be drained. ( Read more... )

erm. this week has been kind of a crazy blur. lots of instances, lots of boredom, and lots of mixed feelings have penetrated successfully into the normal, homework, work, and substance abuse business that is habitually my week. and i don't really know what to make of it. i'm tryin to just go with the flow and take it easy but....yeah i dunno how ( Read more... )

been really busy of late but i suppose i mentioned that hmm? i should be doing my massive quantity of homework but i keep spacing out. i've been having an extraordinarily hard time keeping up with people lately. i'm either in class,sleeping or at work when they call and then i'm with a bunch of people thus making it impossible to have a ( Read more... )

college seems good so far. its only orientation this is true but none the less. I'm almost tired of socializing in the meet and greet fashion that is necessary before you know people. scratch that, i am tired of it. however, i am having a lot of fun. i seriously need a job as well. not sure when i'll time to work it but i need the spending money. i ( Read more... )

Leaving for college is creeping up on me. It's kinda like my stomach flu and then cold. The stomach flu sucked so much that the cold is an improvement. Does that make sense? France was such an extreme change and distance that moving to New Mexico seems like a breeze. At least it's in the same country and within visiting distance. I really need to ( Read more... )

whoo. i'm finally getting kinda excited about school. maybe it's because i'm finally getting bored with summer. finishing summer school to sudden emptyness in the schedule will do that for you. i think (hope) that i'm finally readjusting to being back too. i don't know what's been up lately, i've just been feeling bipolar. but i'm going to chalk it ( Read more... )

jesus fucking christ. so, my courses are due tomarrow. I KNOW. I have gotten 3 emails this week about them. My dad has asked about them, my mom has asked about them, my teacher imed me about them. FUCK OFF, I KNOW. seriously, i make my own pressure i don't need any more. then, my dad called to say that st. john's had called about my transcript. ( Read more... )

so, i have a new cell phone. finally, a way to get a hold of me without a computer or long distance phone cards. crazy, i know. anyhow, i won't keep you all in suspense

405 206 1666

call me. *wink*

so, i'm back. and it is this really queer feeling of feeling like you should know what's going on and that you never left but all this small shit really has. and you're lost. not as bad as the first culture shock in france but disconcerting nonetheless. i had an awesome time in ireland despite a fairly calm trip. and now of course i'm back. and in ( Read more... )