Fic: "Until My Dying Breath", Chapter Eight-- Part One. Kurt/Blaine Vampire AU.

[emilianadarling]

The final scene that was intended to go in this chapter just absolutely did not want to happen there, so it's been moved to the beginning of Chapter Nine. So, so, so many apologies for the long wait, everyone. It was exam and paper time for me, and now I'm at work and it's the single busiest time of the year for us. Thank you so much for waiting

Comments

[loonylevicorpus]

heavy dark curtains hanging attractively and unnecessarily on either side.
I really love your description of Kurt's apartment, but this line is definitely my favorite. It speaks volumes about Kurt's character - he doesn't need curtains and never will, and yet he's gotten extravagant, heavy curtains in his apartment because he enjoys decorating. That, and his kitchen - which he will also never need - makes me wonder at why he's playing at "human" so thoroughly. Blaine wonders here how many people have seen the inside of Kurt's apartment, and I do too. I doubt that nearly anyone has been inside, and so who is Kurt putting up this human facade for? Himself, perhaps? Hmmmmmmmmm.

For the very first time, it occurs to Blaine to wonder whether Kurt might just be lonely, too.
BUT REMEMBER I SAID THIS TOO OMG KURT ;_; I want to be in his head so badly.

The fact that Kurt is intentionally allowing Blaine to hear his movements - that he has decided to let Blaine be reassured by knowing where he is, and when he’s coming back, and what is

[loonylevicorpus]

It’s surreal. Surreal and confusing and it makes his head hurt, because it’s harder to remember that he isn’t here of his own volition when everything is so normal.
Really, this is worse than almost anything that's happened so far. It's like a Tim Burton movie or something. Blaine has no idea what to do with himself because he's not being held down and fucked or sucked (heh), and he's being forced to participate and react now rather than simply try to block out what's happening.

“Well,” he says, his gaze sliding down to rest on the side of Blaine’s neck. The wounds there pulse as Kurt stares at them, straddling the line between playful and serious. “I suppose you could say I’ve already eaten today, if you want to be precise about it.”

[emilianadarling]

It’s totally okay, hon!! I’m just delighted that you take the time to comment at all, especially in such gorgeous detail! Thank you a million, and I’m sorry for the long wait! (I LOVE YOUR ‘LET’S GET DOWN TO BUSINESS’ GIF OH MY GOD! :D :D :D)

ajdhakjshdjkahskjdhasjd, thank you so very much about the descriptions of Blaine’s waking-up mental state! It was actually a description I fussed over a bit; because that feeling is so distinctive to half-sleeping, half-waking, it was a bit tricky to pin down the right words for the sensations. And the fact that Kurt’s cool touch and clear voice are the things that really shine through the blur to you is just so, so perfect.

The synesthetic quality of your writing is more powerful than almost any author that I've read, and no matter the sensation, you manage to so clearly convey it that as I read this scene I'm feeling a little woozy <-- oh my goodness, thank you SO much! That honestly makes me so giddy, thank you so much! Conveying sensations is so much fun, I find; it’s a wonderful

[emilianadarling]

Your observation about the curtains is probably my absolute favourite part of your comment, hands-down. Because YES. I had someone else asking me why Kurt bothered to have a kitchen at all; why not just get a place without one? And all I could really do was to point to the fact that Kurt has curtains, too, even though he’ll never need them, simply because they look attractive and he had fun choosing them out and that’s what homes have. SO YES. YES YES YES, your comment is made of crystallized win. I think that the idea of Kurt putting on a human facade for himself, too, is a very good note to take.

I AM SO HAPPY THAT PEOPLE ARE STILL REMEMBERING SAYING THAT AND I POSTED THAT CHAPTER ALL THE WAY BACK IN SEPTEMBER AND IT WAS LIKE 100,000 WORDS AGO. Yay, foreshadowing!! \o/ You were very astute, bb!!

I love the comment about the footsteps, too, and I think it really is quite spot-on; Kurt thinks he’s doing something nice, and Blaine even starts to think that he’s doing something nice - but how can ANY of this be nice? At all? In any

[loonylevicorpus]

Blaine wonders if Kurt is trying to drive him insane, not letting him know what time it is or how long it’s been. He wonders if it’s working.
Oooh, I love this little bit. Blaine is starting to lose his grip on himself and his reality, isn't he? I wonder how this will affect him as things progress.

Holding him tight and close and innocently for long minutes - until Kurt’s hand slides down lower and Blaine’s hysterical tears turn into choked-out gasps of pleasure-pain, and it stops being sweet and innocent at all.
I don't even know what to say about this, other than that it is SUCH a powerful image and so terrifying. The entire ending to this scene is so vague and glosses over everything that has been happening for who knows how long, and that sense of disjointed reality makes it that much worse. Even when Blaine is having this breakdown here, there is such a lack of emotion associated with his desperation - it's portrayed as simply a physical reaction.

But the time after, Blaine thinks, the satisfaction doesn’t last quite as long.

[emilianadarling]

Responding to this part up with the rest of your comment, bb! At the end!