here it is... 89 days until I have to come home and face the mess that is the economy and my parents.

I have realized, I am the glue that holds my family together.
and I thank God that I was able to have five whole months that were me.
just for me.
thank you.

so am I ten again?
my mom and dad have put me in the middle of their devorce again.... shit... money issues
I know that I am fucked for school, I better start looking at colleges in california... thanks a lot economy.

so I am realizing that money has become so much stress on me it isnt even funny ( Read more... )

I will be productive ( Read more... )

I miss home
a lot.
this is an amazing expierence but I cannot stop crying because I just miss the people I love..... I really really miss you guys.

BLAH! I am so fucking tired of negative people. I am tired of being talked down to and I am tired of people treating me like a little child. I cannot wait for Amsterdam and she is not going to fuck up my trip!
fuck.

p.s. ... I am worried about you... you know who you are... write me back soon...
love, me :)

Italy is fucking amazing.
I just needed to say that.

gosh this is fun.
kenny is amazing.
he is taking me on a date tonight
I am a little nervous....
okay a lot nervous!
but excited.
:)
homework blows.
SHOPPING TOMORROW!

miss you guys.
love, me

I am so deeply head over heals mad about my boyfriend ( Read more... )

I need to stop freaking out about the small stuff
and stop over analyzing things.
okay done.
okay now time for school.
miss you guys, hope you are all doing well.
please keep in touch.
love, me