The doors are locked

but the windows are open, so I can break inside.

I know every nook and cranny,

but I cant find a place to hide.

The walls are now bare,

we were almost there-

I guess you can say that I tried.

Its freezing cold and the heat wont turn on,

the days are short but the hours are long.

The ceiling seems more shallow, the ( Read more... )

 In all honesty, the truth is I miss you. I know whats best for me, and I know what everyone wants for me but I can't help it. I don't care. 

 "I love the way that even after I’m not with you anymore, I can still smell you. Your scent lingers in my hair and on my skin. I love the way you smell, like teenage boy and cheap cigarettes. Like sweat and cologne. I wish I could bury myself in that scent, melt into a dreamy daze surrounded by it.”

 Trying to erase the past 5 months of my life from my mind.

 Time is such a crazy concept. It passes so quickly, even if you don't realize it. Every single second that passes is a second gone forever, that you will never be able to relive. Every minute, every hour, every day- its your life that you've already lived. Its gone, it's over. You will never be able to regain it. Its that much closer to your ( Read more... )

 Why can't I stop listening to Brand New? I used to not even like them, and now all of a sudden its all that I can bring myself to listen too. Its the only shit I feel like I can relate too, which I hate to say because it makes me sound like some depressed bitch, but at this point in my life its the only music I've been listening to that relates to ( Read more... )

I wonder how many

pretty things are in front of your

eyes

hazel

big

like an owl,

a night owl

my night owl

so many summer nights we spent

out in the night air

together

in harmony

our hearts beating

as one

I breathed in as you beathed

out

I’m out

of my mind

without

you

here

home

is somewhere else for you now

somewhere

far

away

from me

so now

I ( Read more... )

 You want me? Great. You need me? Wonderful. You love me? Fabulous. Then fucking show it. I refuse to sit here alone, waiting for you, if you can't even take the time to shoot me a text. I don't know where you are, how you are, who you're with, what you're doing, when you'll be going to bed, if you're sad, if you're happy, I know nothing. You're ( Read more... )

 Fuck this. I'm letting go. I'm going out. PEACE.

 I soon realize again that I'm just not. Every time I think its okay, it's not. It's not at all.