I don't understand why I can't be an A student here. I'm so sick of getting back sucky grades. Okay fine maybe I do understand, it's because I don't really do homework or study or pay attention in class. What I don't understand is why can't I change? Why can't I be a fucking good student ( Read more... )

uh-oh, i'm coughing. noooooo. not good.

damn you, alcohol.

i don't know who i am, i don't know what i want ( Read more... )

Life is about getting my ass up and getting stuff done. It's about doing as much as I can, right now.

I will practice and workout harder than ever. I will get the fuck out of sym band next quarter. I will do a marathon and a triatholon before I turn 25.

there's this feeling that i haven't had for awhile...where you're excited, but so afraid to be excited. you come home from spending 4 hours in a Lincoln Park cafe with him and download songs you heard in the car. you tell yourself to let it go, that nothing's there, but that weird nervous feeling keeps on growing ( Read more... )

i wish i could just spend all day at the gym, take every class and have a personal trainer and then go swimming and rockclimbing...it's definitely my favorite place to be. second to the practice room of course. ha ( Read more... )

Pref night was tonight. I spent 9 hours making booklets yesterday. It's all over, finally. I cried during all three ceremonies when Lydia performed a song she wrote about DZ. It totally caught me off guard. Tears just rolled outta my eyes like a popped water balloon. She sang so beautifully ( Read more... )

Second to last day of recruitment, and it's going very well, everyone's excited ( Read more... )

Exhausted. Truly. I really do love my girlfriends though, they make me happy and keep me sane. Christy, Melanie, Christy, MJ, Eden, Jess, and Kat, my favorites. DZ and sisterhood and all that crazy stuff...it's real. I like real. I like genuine.

I will like practicing. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

I need more than 24 hours a