Ultraviolet (Chapter Thirteen)
Title: Ultraviolet
Author: emilyglh
Pairings: Yoosu, a dash of Yunjae & mischievous Min
Length: Chaptered (Chapter Thirteen)
Genre: Romance, Drama, Fluff, Angst (A little bit of everything)
Rating: pg-13
A/N: Inspired by a love story between two people from different worlds. Set in A/U
Summary: Yoochun and Junsu are two different people, with different backgrounds, attending two different schools, living in two different neighborhoods in the same time. Against all odds, the two falls in love and begins a beautiful relationship.
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Jaejoong glanced uneasily in every direction. He then slumped on his chair moodily before turning to check the time with his watch. Yunho on the other hand, sat in his seat calmly as he observed his disturbed lover who was sitting next to him with patience.
“Where the hell is he? Are you sure you set us up right?” the lead singer’s eyes remained glued to the glass window of the restaurant, scanning almost everyone and everything that the window pane would allow him.
The couple had arranged to meet up Junsu via Eunhyuk which Changmin had managed contact a few days ago. It was then decided that Yunho would make the call since he was leader and the most calm and collective amongst the lot. Junsu was hesitant at first, but after much chiding and partly it was the respect the younger had for Yunho, did he finally agree.
“Joongie yah, its been four years since we last saw him. He would have changed a lot. Just don’t get your hopes too high, there’s no telling how he might react to what we’re about to tell him later” as usual, the leader’s voice would make so much sense, Jaejoong would rather not listen.
Jaejoong nodded absent mindedly as Yunho hugged him affectionately through their seats. “we’ll try Yunnie. For my brother’s happiness, for Yoochun’s happiness. I‘m willing to take the chance”
The couple had managed to catch some time alone; the past few months had been hard for them. Even best friends would have a certain line they shouldn’t cross over and Yunho and Jaejoong were a little too close for the public eye’s comfort. The management had ordered them to tone down their skin ship and fan service to a minimum; fearing homophobic criticism. With so much pressure from the management, fans, and the public to please, the couple barely had chance to hold hands.
And now that they were back in Clintwood, it was just like the past. They wouldn’t have to adhere to any rules here.
They were in a deep conversation with Jaejoong occasionally staring out into the streets spotting for their former band member while Yunho had his arm draped around the elder’s shoulder. The two lovers were seated at the end of the town’s best restaurant. It was the same restaurant Junsu had bought them dinner with his first pay.
“Yunnie ah, it only seemed like yesterday that Junsu had treated us here for dinner” Jaejoong sighed as he played with Yunho’s fingers that were over his shoulders. The leader hummed in agreement.
“We sat on the exact same table here. Talking, laughing, fooling around. Changmin devouring his food like he was on starvation for weeks, Yoochun sending portions of his food into Junsu’s plate while they sneakily hold hands under the table. And we sat there smiling like we meant it” Yunho couldn’t help but smile along to the memory that Jaejoong had rambled out lazily as lean into his lover; enjoying his warmth. It was really one of the happiest moment of their lives.
“if only it would last. Its been a while since Yoochun smiled, or laughed”
Of course, good things would always come to an end, Yunho thought. He was about to comfort Jaejoong when he spotted a familiar figure by the reception. Yunho waved his hand calmly in order to catch the person’s attention while Jaejoong sat straight up.
Junsu caught sight of the elder couple and headed towards their direction. They were seated a little too far back; mostly for privacy. Junsu was amazed that Yunho and Jaejoong had managed to stay together; even until today.
“Hey Junsu” Yunho smiled and greeted calmly as always. Junsu had always admired and respected his demeaning aura. Junsu then removed his coat to hang it on his chair, his cheeks still puffy red from the cold winter in town.
“Yunho hyung, Jaejoong hyung” he proceeded to take his seat opposite the couple.
Jaejoong grinned “there’s no need for so much manners Junsu. You know I spit on it”
Junsu smiled; Jaejoong’s is as rebellious and wild as he used to be.
“How are you Junsu? Its been a while since we last seen you” but there was always Yunho’s steadiness that would calm his lover down. They compliment each other; like the moon and the sun.
“I’m fine” Junsu replied coldly as he smiled.
“We’re glad you are” Yunho admitted sincerely. Junsu was everything like Changmin had described him to be. Taller, his small petite frame had morphed into a tone body, his youthful innocent face was replaced with maturity and professionalism.
Further conversations were interrupted and made to a halt as they waitress came over for their order.
“I’ll have the latte while Jaejoong would like an orange juice” Yunho paused and turned to look a Junsu “what about you Su?”
“Water would be fine” an uneasy feeling settled on his stomach hearing Yunho call him Su. Its been a while since anyone had call him with that nickname.
The middle aged lady nodded and proceeded to write down their orders, her eyes widen in shock as she turned up to recollect their menus “you’re Kim Junsu aren’t you?”
Junsu smiled hesitantly.
“I heard about your upcoming wedding. The whole town’s buzzing in excitement with it. We’ve never had an event this big since Woobin’s wedding four years ago. Can you believe he‘s a dad of two now?” the waitress continued on, oblivious to the mounting tension and awkwardness between the three. Jaejoong frowned, Yunho plastered a fake smile while Junsu smoothed the side of his hair with his hand.
“congratulations then. I’ll just get your orders keyed in” thankfully, she left the table as quickly as she had talked.
Junsu felt a little pang in his heart, Woobin’s wedding was the night they had first met; officially. That alone had let to so many wonderful memories, which had all turned out to be lies. Fucking lies.
“So Junsu, are you really getting married?” Jaejoong asked sarcastically.
Junsu nodded, he didn’t know that three had attended his birthday party the other day assuming that they knew from the town’s gossip.
“Do you love her?” Jaejoong asked bluntly earning a jab from Yunho by his side.
“Why else would I marry her?” Junsu challenged back.
“You have not answered my question Junsu”
Silence hung dangerously in the atmosphere as Jaejoong and Junsu were engaged in a heated glaring battle.
“Junsu yah” Yunho had decided to step in before Jaejoong loses his patience and dives in to strangle the younger. “have you seen Yoochun yet?”
Junsu tore his attention from Jaejoong to Yunho. He smirked “Why would I need to see him? When he was the one who kicked me out of his life in the first place”
Jaejoong snapped “if it wasn’t for your good for nothing father”
Yunho patted Jaejoong’s thigh under the table; calming his flaming lover down.
“Don’t ever talk about my father like that. If it wasn’t for him, I would still be living in the streets by now. He was the one who saved me when all of you had ever done was lie to me” Junsu retorted with equal fire.
“Lies, bullshit. If it wasn’t for your almighty and noble father, Yoochun and you would still be together by now”
Junsu crossed him arms as he continued to glare at the lead singer “Stop insulting my father”
“Your dad Junsu, your dad went to look for Yoochun. He talked Yoochun into thinking that he would ruin your future if you two were together. What Yoochun did is because he loves you. Even till now” Jaejoong had managed to lower his anger and was now explaining calmly to Junsu.
“Love? Do you know how much I suffered? How much tears I shed because of him? I thought for once he was different, but in the end, he was just a liar. Like all of you”
“You think you were the only one that suffered? Have we told you that Yoochun was diagnosed with depression? Do you know that he rejected the record company’s offer because of you? Do you know that he broke his leg twice?! Do you?! Do you know he was almost crippled because of you?! Do you fucking know Kim Junsu?!” Jaejoong hissed angrily; he didn’t wanted to attract attention. Despite the fact that the corner they were sitting in was far off from the crowd.
Junsu couldn’t deny that he was worried at the composer. Jaejoong noticed that Junsu had began to tense and decided to continue.
“You know how much Yoochun hates soccer. He barely plays any sports, particularly contact sports. He then decides to play soccer for the school. Our dumb teacher was more than glad to have him play.
“What the hell were you thinking Park Yoochun?! You hated contact sports. You hated soccer” Jaejoong corners Yoochun in the nearby corridor after their weekly assembly.
The school football team had already been announced, and Yoochun had went up with his maroon number ten jersey, representing the school’s theme color and logo with pride. Jaejoong’s jaw had almost dropped when he saw his best friend on stage. Yoochun barely attended school, let alone represent it for something as important as soccer.
“I’ve been moping around long enough already. Its time I do something valuable”
“Working at the shop isn’t? huh? Writing music isn’t?”
Yoochun looked away in annoyance “its just something that I want to do alright? I know how to take care of myself”
With that Yoochun shoved Jaejoong’s hands away from his collar and left without saying a word.
“that was the first time in years I had argued with him. He wasn’t the Yoochun I know anymore, he smokes every minute of the day. And when he doesn’t smoke, he hides in his room for hours. Yunho and I were at our wits end. Nothing we do could change his mind”
“Yoochun-ah, please. This is your dream, you’ve been talking about this ever since we were in kindergarten. Why? What changed?” Jaejoong pleaded Yoochun desperately. Jaejoong had just got back from his audition with the record company, Yoochun had skipped the meeting cutting his chance of joining immediately.
Yoochun dabbed his cigarette to the railing, shaking off the forming ashes before taking in another breath of the deadly nicotine and tobacco mix. Yoochun sat calmly on the rooftop of their apartment, just enjoying the peace and quiet it has to offer.
He watched as the smoke escaped his mouth little by little, drawing a small cloud “those were just childish dreams. People grow up”
“You are liar Park Yoochun. You love music more than anything else”
Yoochun chuckled “that’s where you’re wrong. I love Junsu more than anything else”
Jaejoong sighed and rested his hand on Yoochun’s shoulder “he’s gone. He’s going to move on. You have to too”
“I will wait forever. Even if he doesn’t come back, I’ll be here in Clintwood for as long as I live”
The composer cut Jaejoong off “Jaejoong-ah, you go ahead. Yunho will take care of you. He’’ always be there to protect you, don’t let a little argument end your relationship. At least you have the chance to see him everyday. I don’t know when will be the day I’ll see Junsu again”
Yoochun threw the bud on the floor and reach for another one down his pack “appreciate him Joongie”
He lighted the cancer stick, patted Jaejoong’s back and left for the rooftop door, leaving Jaejoong in a big mess of thoughts.
“That’s when he lost his chance to join the company. You know how talented Yoochun is Junsu. He would have made it big, he wouldn’t have to be stuck here while everyone else is moving forward. He wouldn’t have been looked down upon by your dad”
“Lookie who’s here you guys” Siwon teased as the rest of the team echoed his laugh.
“Park Yoochun. The most famous boy in town. Gay boy” Yoochun ignored him as he continued putting on his boots. Siwon was disappointed at the lack of response at Yoochun and chose to dig in deeper to provoke him.
Siwon leaned in nearer to Yoochun who was sitting on the bench “I heard you screwed Kim Junsu and he had to leave town because he was too traumatize”’
“Is gay sex good Park Yoochun? Or is it that scary that the person has to run away?” Yoochun had lost his semblance of patience and dove straight into Siwon’s direction for a punch. He grabbed his collar fiercely.
Siwon was caught of guard and fell to the soft green grass immediately. The rest of his team helped peel Yoochun away from the St. Patrick’s captain who was nursing his bleeding nose.
“Calm down Yoochun” he heard Eunhyuk pulling his arms in a death grip. Not allowing the composer from lunging into Siwon again. He had managed to control his temper largely because it was Eunhyuk. And Eunhyuk was Junsu’s best friend. Right now, it was the closest he could get to Junsu.
The rest of the team had let him go as soon as Yoochun had stopped struggling.
“What’s this all about?” Kangin, Clintwood High’s soccer captain questioned as the large crowd began to dissipate. Yoochun left without another word towards the locker room.
“Fuck off Park Yoochun, this is my turf. You follow my rules” Siwon yelled teasingly as he laughed. Yoochun had only continued heading towards the locker room, away from the field. He could easily take down the whole team but it was a childish thing to do. And he doesn’t believe in violence anymore.
Choi Siwon isn’t worth his time.
“Park Yoochun, you’re in” the coach signaled as the composer continued to warm his legs up. He then run to stand beside the official who held the board up high showing the correct substitution. The said player ran off the field and gave Yoochun a high five before running in to the side stand.
Siwon gave eye signal towards his team mates before grinning slyly.
Park Yoochun was going to pay.
Yoochun had played wing that day, it was like a bonus for Siwon. As the composer continued dribbling his ball pass every player into the left corner of the field, Siwon had eyed two of his defenders to move out. They nodded at him before running towards the referee. The two began running lightly, stopping and jogging all around the referee; distracting him. The both of them finally stopped and blocked the referee’s full view of Yoochun.
Siwon caught his perfect opportunity and ran before sliding his leg down for a tackle to Yoochun’s right shin, hitting it hard and with precision. The sound of bone snapping had not been enough to describe the pain coursing through Yoochun’s body now.
He flew as the result of the momentum and impact of Siwon’s tackle before landing harshly on the ground below. Tears of agonizing pain began flowing while he laid lifelessly on the ground. Bystanders were booing the referee as he did nothing but called for medical attention.
Yoochun had managed to catch sight of Siwon who was smirking above him “I told you Park Yoochun, this is my turf. I make the rules”
That was the last thing he saw before Yoochun fainted to the overwhelming pain .
“We took a leave from training immediately after Eunhyuk had called us. Doctor said he broke his shin and dislocated his ankle. It was a pretty big blow from someone as strong as Siwon. Yoochun refused to speak to any of us, Yunho and I tried everything. It took six months before his cast could be completely removed and another month for him to walk again. He drew in deeper depression ignoring everyone around him. By that time, the Yoochun you once dated and the Yoochun I knew was gone”
“Haven’t you heard? Mr. Kim’s son will be heading back for a visit soon” a middle aged woman told her husband.
Yoochun who was busy choosing his weekly supply of cigarette had managed to catch the sentence and was listening intently to the old couple’s conversation.
“The poor boy, Elaine told me he’s homesick. They’re picking him up from the airport as we speak”
Yoochun’s eyes widen in shock, he immediately exited the shop and jogged home as fast as his newly healed leg could carry him. As soon as he’s home, he made a grab for his bike keys.
He looked at his black Kawasaki, its been almost nine months since he last rode his bike. He sighed heavily, maybe he would have the chance to see Junsu again. Ignoring the doctor’s advice of keeping heavy activities to his leg to a minimum, he got onto his bike and kick start the accelerator sending the engine to a loud roar.
It happened in a split second; with his leg in numbing pain and him gradually losing control of his bike due to pain. The loud horn of the car had woke him from his reverie, but it was all too late, with all the strength Yoochun could muster, he slid his bike up sending it to glide across the ground missing the car just by inches.
But the tail of the Kawasaki had collided with the bumper of the car sending Yoochun to lose his balance and the huge bike to fall on his right leg. He howled in pain as the moving bike continued to drag his leg across the road mercilessly.
The bike has finally lost its momentum sliding to a slow halt, blood pooled around his right leg as all Yoochun could do was relax his body from the excruciating pain. He closed his eyes trying to drain out the screams and vehicle honks echoing in the distance. He then gave in to fatigue and pain.
“Junsu….”
“He was brought to the hospital straight away for corrective surgery, doctor said that because his bones were healing and growing stronger again, he was restricted from anything that could affect his leg. Such as riding a bike”
“Are you related to Park Yoochun?” the doctor asked Jaejoong and Yunho who were pacing impatiently outside the operating theatre.
“Park Yoochun does not have any living family members. I’m his best friend” Jaejoong confirmed. “Kim Jaejoong” he shook hands with the doctor.
“The patient’s fine, surgery’s successful as well, his external wounds were washed off and stitched, there were no sign of concussion or any other injuries. He should be up in a few hours after the anesthetic wears off. ”
The couple sighed in relief.
“However, this accident has seriously affected his previously healing bones. I managed to fit three screws and a few bolts to help support his leg. In time, these screws could be removed depending on how Mr. Park’s fractured bones would heal. Some would have to be permanently attached to help provide enough support. Pain would still be evident in the future, even after full recovery. Riding bikes, football and other heavy activities would be impossible in the future anymore”
“You mean he can’t ride a bike at all?” Jaejoong asked hopelessly; trying hard to digest the doctor’s words. Motorcycles are part of Yoochun’s life; the latter would be upset if he finds out. And they didn’t need or want another reason for Yoochun to fall into even more deeper depression.
The doctor nodded as he kept his head low “Just make sure he takes his medication and attends his physiotherapy appointments. Walking and running wouldn’t be a problem after full recovery”
“Thank god Min’s parents were there to help take care of him. Yoochun was up and walking in another six months time. As expected, he cast himself to live in perfect solitude. It was until he met Harang, that he began picking up the pieces of his life” Jaejoong continued on. Occasionally pausing to sip on his orange juice.
A wave of jealousy washed over Junsu as he heard about Harang. Who was he? When and how did he appear in Yoochun’s life? He must be really important to Yoochun to be able bring him out of his shell that seemed untouchable even to Jaejoong and Yunho.
Yunho nodded in agreement “yea, at least Harang kept Yoochun company. I’m glad he showed up at his doorstep, who could resist those eyes? Even till now, I don’t think Yoochun would be ever to live if anything happens to Harang”
Both of the said singers tried to hold in their laugher as they caught the change in Junsu’s emotion. Which was mostly jealousy and anger.
“Why are you telling me anyway? As I said, Yoochun was the one who left me”
Jaejoong sighed; this was going to be a long day “Junsu-ah, think again. What happened before Yoochun snapped that night? Don’t you find it odd that how someone so caring, loving and as gentle as Yoochun would change just like that? Doesn’t it puzzle you Junsu?”
Junsu looked ahead as he stared at the wall, avoiding eye contact with the couple “I don’t want to talk about it. There’s nothing to talk about anyway, if he’s as innocent as you put him to be, he shouldn’t have done it in the first place. If he thinks my feelings are something to be played with, then I don’t think he deserves anything”
Jaejoong slammed both hands on the table “what do you mean he doesn’t deserve anything?!”
“the only thing he doesn’t deserve is shit from your good for nothing father” Jaejoong added sarcastically. Everyone was getting the Min disease lately.
This time, it was Junsu who stood up “you talk about my father like that again, you’re not my hyung anymore”
“he was there when all of you weren’t. He was the one that pushed me to who I am today. You don’t know how much I owed him. Because you don’t know how much I cried for him hyung, you don’t know how confused I was, I kept on thinking where I went wrong. Why did Yoochun hate me so much. It was then I decided to stop being so naïve and innocent. I wouldn’t let you guys fool me again”
Jaejoong scoffed “I guess you still are Junsu”
“Then stop telling me about what’s right and wrong, because as much as I respect you and Yunho hyung, I’m sick of you trying to prove how innocent Yoochun was. I heard and saw with my own eyes what happened that night. And all I trust now, is myself”
With that, Junsu turned to retrieve his coat hanging on the chair and leave; his tears threatening to flow any moment. Its been a while since he last cried, and he swore to himself he was never going to do it again. He refused to be called weak.
“Remember Junsu, you had everyone beside you. You have your family, you have your friends, your fiancé even. Who does Yoochun have?” Jaejoong called desperately. This meeting had not turned out the way it was supposed to be. Junsu was supposed to accept Yoochun’s mistakes. He was supposed to know the truth.
That his father was at fault.
Junsu froze trying to take in Jaejoong last sentence, but he made to move to turn or acknowledge the lead singer’s words. He continued walking towards the exit instead.
Jaejoong heaved a large sigh “I’m lost, I don’t know what to do anymore Yunho-ah”
Yunho then stood up to give his lover a comforting hug “Things will be fine love, imagine having to live four years of your life believing in a lie, a lie created by your own father. He just needs time”
Jaejoong returned Yunho hug, glad he has someone to comfort him “I hope so Yunnie. I hope so”
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A/N: Special guest the next chap ^.^
Author: emilyglh
Pairings: Yoosu, a dash of Yunjae & mischievous Min
Length: Chaptered (Chapter Thirteen)
Genre: Romance, Drama, Fluff, Angst (A little bit of everything)
Rating: pg-13
A/N: Inspired by a love story between two people from different worlds. Set in A/U
Summary: Yoochun and Junsu are two different people, with different backgrounds, attending two different schools, living in two different neighborhoods in the same time. Against all odds, the two falls in love and begins a beautiful relationship.
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Jaejoong glanced uneasily in every direction. He then slumped on his chair moodily before turning to check the time with his watch. Yunho on the other hand, sat in his seat calmly as he observed his disturbed lover who was sitting next to him with patience.
“Where the hell is he? Are you sure you set us up right?” the lead singer’s eyes remained glued to the glass window of the restaurant, scanning almost everyone and everything that the window pane would allow him.
The couple had arranged to meet up Junsu via Eunhyuk which Changmin had managed contact a few days ago. It was then decided that Yunho would make the call since he was leader and the most calm and collective amongst the lot. Junsu was hesitant at first, but after much chiding and partly it was the respect the younger had for Yunho, did he finally agree.
“Joongie yah, its been four years since we last saw him. He would have changed a lot. Just don’t get your hopes too high, there’s no telling how he might react to what we’re about to tell him later” as usual, the leader’s voice would make so much sense, Jaejoong would rather not listen.
Jaejoong nodded absent mindedly as Yunho hugged him affectionately through their seats. “we’ll try Yunnie. For my brother’s happiness, for Yoochun’s happiness. I‘m willing to take the chance”
The couple had managed to catch some time alone; the past few months had been hard for them. Even best friends would have a certain line they shouldn’t cross over and Yunho and Jaejoong were a little too close for the public eye’s comfort. The management had ordered them to tone down their skin ship and fan service to a minimum; fearing homophobic criticism. With so much pressure from the management, fans, and the public to please, the couple barely had chance to hold hands.
And now that they were back in Clintwood, it was just like the past. They wouldn’t have to adhere to any rules here.
They were in a deep conversation with Jaejoong occasionally staring out into the streets spotting for their former band member while Yunho had his arm draped around the elder’s shoulder. The two lovers were seated at the end of the town’s best restaurant. It was the same restaurant Junsu had bought them dinner with his first pay.
“Yunnie ah, it only seemed like yesterday that Junsu had treated us here for dinner” Jaejoong sighed as he played with Yunho’s fingers that were over his shoulders. The leader hummed in agreement.
“We sat on the exact same table here. Talking, laughing, fooling around. Changmin devouring his food like he was on starvation for weeks, Yoochun sending portions of his food into Junsu’s plate while they sneakily hold hands under the table. And we sat there smiling like we meant it” Yunho couldn’t help but smile along to the memory that Jaejoong had rambled out lazily as lean into his lover; enjoying his warmth. It was really one of the happiest moment of their lives.
“if only it would last. Its been a while since Yoochun smiled, or laughed”
Of course, good things would always come to an end, Yunho thought. He was about to comfort Jaejoong when he spotted a familiar figure by the reception. Yunho waved his hand calmly in order to catch the person’s attention while Jaejoong sat straight up.
Junsu caught sight of the elder couple and headed towards their direction. They were seated a little too far back; mostly for privacy. Junsu was amazed that Yunho and Jaejoong had managed to stay together; even until today.
“Hey Junsu” Yunho smiled and greeted calmly as always. Junsu had always admired and respected his demeaning aura. Junsu then removed his coat to hang it on his chair, his cheeks still puffy red from the cold winter in town.
“Yunho hyung, Jaejoong hyung” he proceeded to take his seat opposite the couple.
Jaejoong grinned “there’s no need for so much manners Junsu. You know I spit on it”
Junsu smiled; Jaejoong’s is as rebellious and wild as he used to be.
“How are you Junsu? Its been a while since we last seen you” but there was always Yunho’s steadiness that would calm his lover down. They compliment each other; like the moon and the sun.
“I’m fine” Junsu replied coldly as he smiled.
“We’re glad you are” Yunho admitted sincerely. Junsu was everything like Changmin had described him to be. Taller, his small petite frame had morphed into a tone body, his youthful innocent face was replaced with maturity and professionalism.
Further conversations were interrupted and made to a halt as they waitress came over for their order.
“I’ll have the latte while Jaejoong would like an orange juice” Yunho paused and turned to look a Junsu “what about you Su?”
“Water would be fine” an uneasy feeling settled on his stomach hearing Yunho call him Su. Its been a while since anyone had call him with that nickname.
The middle aged lady nodded and proceeded to write down their orders, her eyes widen in shock as she turned up to recollect their menus “you’re Kim Junsu aren’t you?”
Junsu smiled hesitantly.
“I heard about your upcoming wedding. The whole town’s buzzing in excitement with it. We’ve never had an event this big since Woobin’s wedding four years ago. Can you believe he‘s a dad of two now?” the waitress continued on, oblivious to the mounting tension and awkwardness between the three. Jaejoong frowned, Yunho plastered a fake smile while Junsu smoothed the side of his hair with his hand.
“congratulations then. I’ll just get your orders keyed in” thankfully, she left the table as quickly as she had talked.
Junsu felt a little pang in his heart, Woobin’s wedding was the night they had first met; officially. That alone had let to so many wonderful memories, which had all turned out to be lies. Fucking lies.
“So Junsu, are you really getting married?” Jaejoong asked sarcastically.
Junsu nodded, he didn’t know that three had attended his birthday party the other day assuming that they knew from the town’s gossip.
“Do you love her?” Jaejoong asked bluntly earning a jab from Yunho by his side.
“Why else would I marry her?” Junsu challenged back.
“You have not answered my question Junsu”
Silence hung dangerously in the atmosphere as Jaejoong and Junsu were engaged in a heated glaring battle.
“Junsu yah” Yunho had decided to step in before Jaejoong loses his patience and dives in to strangle the younger. “have you seen Yoochun yet?”
Junsu tore his attention from Jaejoong to Yunho. He smirked “Why would I need to see him? When he was the one who kicked me out of his life in the first place”
Jaejoong snapped “if it wasn’t for your good for nothing father”
Yunho patted Jaejoong’s thigh under the table; calming his flaming lover down.
“Don’t ever talk about my father like that. If it wasn’t for him, I would still be living in the streets by now. He was the one who saved me when all of you had ever done was lie to me” Junsu retorted with equal fire.
“Lies, bullshit. If it wasn’t for your almighty and noble father, Yoochun and you would still be together by now”
Junsu crossed him arms as he continued to glare at the lead singer “Stop insulting my father”
“Your dad Junsu, your dad went to look for Yoochun. He talked Yoochun into thinking that he would ruin your future if you two were together. What Yoochun did is because he loves you. Even till now” Jaejoong had managed to lower his anger and was now explaining calmly to Junsu.
“Love? Do you know how much I suffered? How much tears I shed because of him? I thought for once he was different, but in the end, he was just a liar. Like all of you”
“You think you were the only one that suffered? Have we told you that Yoochun was diagnosed with depression? Do you know that he rejected the record company’s offer because of you? Do you know that he broke his leg twice?! Do you?! Do you know he was almost crippled because of you?! Do you fucking know Kim Junsu?!” Jaejoong hissed angrily; he didn’t wanted to attract attention. Despite the fact that the corner they were sitting in was far off from the crowd.
Junsu couldn’t deny that he was worried at the composer. Jaejoong noticed that Junsu had began to tense and decided to continue.
“You know how much Yoochun hates soccer. He barely plays any sports, particularly contact sports. He then decides to play soccer for the school. Our dumb teacher was more than glad to have him play.
“What the hell were you thinking Park Yoochun?! You hated contact sports. You hated soccer” Jaejoong corners Yoochun in the nearby corridor after their weekly assembly.
The school football team had already been announced, and Yoochun had went up with his maroon number ten jersey, representing the school’s theme color and logo with pride. Jaejoong’s jaw had almost dropped when he saw his best friend on stage. Yoochun barely attended school, let alone represent it for something as important as soccer.
“I’ve been moping around long enough already. Its time I do something valuable”
“Working at the shop isn’t? huh? Writing music isn’t?”
Yoochun looked away in annoyance “its just something that I want to do alright? I know how to take care of myself”
With that Yoochun shoved Jaejoong’s hands away from his collar and left without saying a word.
“that was the first time in years I had argued with him. He wasn’t the Yoochun I know anymore, he smokes every minute of the day. And when he doesn’t smoke, he hides in his room for hours. Yunho and I were at our wits end. Nothing we do could change his mind”
“Yoochun-ah, please. This is your dream, you’ve been talking about this ever since we were in kindergarten. Why? What changed?” Jaejoong pleaded Yoochun desperately. Jaejoong had just got back from his audition with the record company, Yoochun had skipped the meeting cutting his chance of joining immediately.
Yoochun dabbed his cigarette to the railing, shaking off the forming ashes before taking in another breath of the deadly nicotine and tobacco mix. Yoochun sat calmly on the rooftop of their apartment, just enjoying the peace and quiet it has to offer.
He watched as the smoke escaped his mouth little by little, drawing a small cloud “those were just childish dreams. People grow up”
“You are liar Park Yoochun. You love music more than anything else”
Yoochun chuckled “that’s where you’re wrong. I love Junsu more than anything else”
Jaejoong sighed and rested his hand on Yoochun’s shoulder “he’s gone. He’s going to move on. You have to too”
“I will wait forever. Even if he doesn’t come back, I’ll be here in Clintwood for as long as I live”
The composer cut Jaejoong off “Jaejoong-ah, you go ahead. Yunho will take care of you. He’’ always be there to protect you, don’t let a little argument end your relationship. At least you have the chance to see him everyday. I don’t know when will be the day I’ll see Junsu again”
Yoochun threw the bud on the floor and reach for another one down his pack “appreciate him Joongie”
He lighted the cancer stick, patted Jaejoong’s back and left for the rooftop door, leaving Jaejoong in a big mess of thoughts.
“That’s when he lost his chance to join the company. You know how talented Yoochun is Junsu. He would have made it big, he wouldn’t have to be stuck here while everyone else is moving forward. He wouldn’t have been looked down upon by your dad”
“Lookie who’s here you guys” Siwon teased as the rest of the team echoed his laugh.
“Park Yoochun. The most famous boy in town. Gay boy” Yoochun ignored him as he continued putting on his boots. Siwon was disappointed at the lack of response at Yoochun and chose to dig in deeper to provoke him.
Siwon leaned in nearer to Yoochun who was sitting on the bench “I heard you screwed Kim Junsu and he had to leave town because he was too traumatize”’
“Is gay sex good Park Yoochun? Or is it that scary that the person has to run away?” Yoochun had lost his semblance of patience and dove straight into Siwon’s direction for a punch. He grabbed his collar fiercely.
Siwon was caught of guard and fell to the soft green grass immediately. The rest of his team helped peel Yoochun away from the St. Patrick’s captain who was nursing his bleeding nose.
“Calm down Yoochun” he heard Eunhyuk pulling his arms in a death grip. Not allowing the composer from lunging into Siwon again. He had managed to control his temper largely because it was Eunhyuk. And Eunhyuk was Junsu’s best friend. Right now, it was the closest he could get to Junsu.
The rest of the team had let him go as soon as Yoochun had stopped struggling.
“What’s this all about?” Kangin, Clintwood High’s soccer captain questioned as the large crowd began to dissipate. Yoochun left without another word towards the locker room.
“Fuck off Park Yoochun, this is my turf. You follow my rules” Siwon yelled teasingly as he laughed. Yoochun had only continued heading towards the locker room, away from the field. He could easily take down the whole team but it was a childish thing to do. And he doesn’t believe in violence anymore.
Choi Siwon isn’t worth his time.
“Park Yoochun, you’re in” the coach signaled as the composer continued to warm his legs up. He then run to stand beside the official who held the board up high showing the correct substitution. The said player ran off the field and gave Yoochun a high five before running in to the side stand.
Siwon gave eye signal towards his team mates before grinning slyly.
Park Yoochun was going to pay.
Yoochun had played wing that day, it was like a bonus for Siwon. As the composer continued dribbling his ball pass every player into the left corner of the field, Siwon had eyed two of his defenders to move out. They nodded at him before running towards the referee. The two began running lightly, stopping and jogging all around the referee; distracting him. The both of them finally stopped and blocked the referee’s full view of Yoochun.
Siwon caught his perfect opportunity and ran before sliding his leg down for a tackle to Yoochun’s right shin, hitting it hard and with precision. The sound of bone snapping had not been enough to describe the pain coursing through Yoochun’s body now.
He flew as the result of the momentum and impact of Siwon’s tackle before landing harshly on the ground below. Tears of agonizing pain began flowing while he laid lifelessly on the ground. Bystanders were booing the referee as he did nothing but called for medical attention.
Yoochun had managed to catch sight of Siwon who was smirking above him “I told you Park Yoochun, this is my turf. I make the rules”
That was the last thing he saw before Yoochun fainted to the overwhelming pain .
“We took a leave from training immediately after Eunhyuk had called us. Doctor said he broke his shin and dislocated his ankle. It was a pretty big blow from someone as strong as Siwon. Yoochun refused to speak to any of us, Yunho and I tried everything. It took six months before his cast could be completely removed and another month for him to walk again. He drew in deeper depression ignoring everyone around him. By that time, the Yoochun you once dated and the Yoochun I knew was gone”
“Haven’t you heard? Mr. Kim’s son will be heading back for a visit soon” a middle aged woman told her husband.
Yoochun who was busy choosing his weekly supply of cigarette had managed to catch the sentence and was listening intently to the old couple’s conversation.
“The poor boy, Elaine told me he’s homesick. They’re picking him up from the airport as we speak”
Yoochun’s eyes widen in shock, he immediately exited the shop and jogged home as fast as his newly healed leg could carry him. As soon as he’s home, he made a grab for his bike keys.
He looked at his black Kawasaki, its been almost nine months since he last rode his bike. He sighed heavily, maybe he would have the chance to see Junsu again. Ignoring the doctor’s advice of keeping heavy activities to his leg to a minimum, he got onto his bike and kick start the accelerator sending the engine to a loud roar.
It happened in a split second; with his leg in numbing pain and him gradually losing control of his bike due to pain. The loud horn of the car had woke him from his reverie, but it was all too late, with all the strength Yoochun could muster, he slid his bike up sending it to glide across the ground missing the car just by inches.
But the tail of the Kawasaki had collided with the bumper of the car sending Yoochun to lose his balance and the huge bike to fall on his right leg. He howled in pain as the moving bike continued to drag his leg across the road mercilessly.
The bike has finally lost its momentum sliding to a slow halt, blood pooled around his right leg as all Yoochun could do was relax his body from the excruciating pain. He closed his eyes trying to drain out the screams and vehicle honks echoing in the distance. He then gave in to fatigue and pain.
“Junsu….”
“He was brought to the hospital straight away for corrective surgery, doctor said that because his bones were healing and growing stronger again, he was restricted from anything that could affect his leg. Such as riding a bike”
“Are you related to Park Yoochun?” the doctor asked Jaejoong and Yunho who were pacing impatiently outside the operating theatre.
“Park Yoochun does not have any living family members. I’m his best friend” Jaejoong confirmed. “Kim Jaejoong” he shook hands with the doctor.
“The patient’s fine, surgery’s successful as well, his external wounds were washed off and stitched, there were no sign of concussion or any other injuries. He should be up in a few hours after the anesthetic wears off. ”
The couple sighed in relief.
“However, this accident has seriously affected his previously healing bones. I managed to fit three screws and a few bolts to help support his leg. In time, these screws could be removed depending on how Mr. Park’s fractured bones would heal. Some would have to be permanently attached to help provide enough support. Pain would still be evident in the future, even after full recovery. Riding bikes, football and other heavy activities would be impossible in the future anymore”
“You mean he can’t ride a bike at all?” Jaejoong asked hopelessly; trying hard to digest the doctor’s words. Motorcycles are part of Yoochun’s life; the latter would be upset if he finds out. And they didn’t need or want another reason for Yoochun to fall into even more deeper depression.
The doctor nodded as he kept his head low “Just make sure he takes his medication and attends his physiotherapy appointments. Walking and running wouldn’t be a problem after full recovery”
“Thank god Min’s parents were there to help take care of him. Yoochun was up and walking in another six months time. As expected, he cast himself to live in perfect solitude. It was until he met Harang, that he began picking up the pieces of his life” Jaejoong continued on. Occasionally pausing to sip on his orange juice.
A wave of jealousy washed over Junsu as he heard about Harang. Who was he? When and how did he appear in Yoochun’s life? He must be really important to Yoochun to be able bring him out of his shell that seemed untouchable even to Jaejoong and Yunho.
Yunho nodded in agreement “yea, at least Harang kept Yoochun company. I’m glad he showed up at his doorstep, who could resist those eyes? Even till now, I don’t think Yoochun would be ever to live if anything happens to Harang”
Both of the said singers tried to hold in their laugher as they caught the change in Junsu’s emotion. Which was mostly jealousy and anger.
“Why are you telling me anyway? As I said, Yoochun was the one who left me”
Jaejoong sighed; this was going to be a long day “Junsu-ah, think again. What happened before Yoochun snapped that night? Don’t you find it odd that how someone so caring, loving and as gentle as Yoochun would change just like that? Doesn’t it puzzle you Junsu?”
Junsu looked ahead as he stared at the wall, avoiding eye contact with the couple “I don’t want to talk about it. There’s nothing to talk about anyway, if he’s as innocent as you put him to be, he shouldn’t have done it in the first place. If he thinks my feelings are something to be played with, then I don’t think he deserves anything”
Jaejoong slammed both hands on the table “what do you mean he doesn’t deserve anything?!”
“the only thing he doesn’t deserve is shit from your good for nothing father” Jaejoong added sarcastically. Everyone was getting the Min disease lately.
This time, it was Junsu who stood up “you talk about my father like that again, you’re not my hyung anymore”
“he was there when all of you weren’t. He was the one that pushed me to who I am today. You don’t know how much I owed him. Because you don’t know how much I cried for him hyung, you don’t know how confused I was, I kept on thinking where I went wrong. Why did Yoochun hate me so much. It was then I decided to stop being so naïve and innocent. I wouldn’t let you guys fool me again”
Jaejoong scoffed “I guess you still are Junsu”
“Then stop telling me about what’s right and wrong, because as much as I respect you and Yunho hyung, I’m sick of you trying to prove how innocent Yoochun was. I heard and saw with my own eyes what happened that night. And all I trust now, is myself”
With that, Junsu turned to retrieve his coat hanging on the chair and leave; his tears threatening to flow any moment. Its been a while since he last cried, and he swore to himself he was never going to do it again. He refused to be called weak.
“Remember Junsu, you had everyone beside you. You have your family, you have your friends, your fiancé even. Who does Yoochun have?” Jaejoong called desperately. This meeting had not turned out the way it was supposed to be. Junsu was supposed to accept Yoochun’s mistakes. He was supposed to know the truth.
That his father was at fault.
Junsu froze trying to take in Jaejoong last sentence, but he made to move to turn or acknowledge the lead singer’s words. He continued walking towards the exit instead.
Jaejoong heaved a large sigh “I’m lost, I don’t know what to do anymore Yunho-ah”
Yunho then stood up to give his lover a comforting hug “Things will be fine love, imagine having to live four years of your life believing in a lie, a lie created by your own father. He just needs time”
Jaejoong returned Yunho hug, glad he has someone to comfort him “I hope so Yunnie. I hope so”
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A/N: Special guest the next chap ^.^