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[emilyhateslife]

i've never been this happy,
i've never felt this complete,

and no one will ever know how much it hurts to get what you have wanted for so long but lose what you have had for so long...

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[falsumhumani]

i wish i could be happy for you, i really do. you seem extremely happy. but i can't be happy for you when i know it's someone who doesn't deserve you...someone who fucked you over so bad. he hurt you and you forgave him. he lied to you but he's worth giving up all of us. if he had not done what he did i would be happy for you, ecstatic that you got out, that you found someone. instead i'm bitter, hurt, PISSED THE FUCK OFF. i swear i won't know you in a year or less. look at what happened with melanie...i was so close to her right before she left. we made plans of seeing each other again and keeping in touch but you can't uphold a close relationship through text or phone conversations. relationships like ours are built on the hours upon hours we would spend together. being right there for each other. you're the best of best friends i've ever had and i can't stop you from leaving. i don't want to stop you from leaving because then you'd only despise me here. i just wish he deserved you...it'd be so much easier. but he doesn't. he's not

[emilyhateslife]

you and melanie didnt have what you and i have.. i have known you for so long christi and i have loved you for so long, you and mel only had a few months, maybe a year.. i'm not looking at tim as a last resort to get out or get layed or whatever i really honestly love him and i can forgive him.. i just wish that you could do that for me.. but if you cant then just forgive me for leaving you.. i promise with every thing that i have in me i wont let what happened to you and melanie happen to you and me, i couldnt.. i would be fucking lost without you.. and you know that i cant go more than a month at a time with out my mom, so i'll be back home so much.. the only way our friendship is going to deteriorate is if you let it, im willing to put every thing i have into keeping this as close to the way it was.. please dont give up on me and please dont forget me because i cant live with out your friendship...

[falsumhumani]

well i guess we'll see. but i want you to know i think you're making a mistake. and no i can't forgive him, what he did and what he was willing to do was so fucked! you hardly know this fucking guy. but whatever, it's your life. i hope i'm still here for you when it's all said and done.

[emilyhateslife]

i cant believe you are going to trow away every thing we have just because you think im making a mistake.. and whats with this i hope im here for you bullshit.. thats fucked.. i love you so much and i have been there for you when you needed me the most and i dont know why you cant understand that i'm still going to be here for you when you need me.. i just wish you could see that..

[bloodxflux]

I can remember sitting down, just the three of us, through the hard times and the good times

[emilyhateslife]

i am so sick of you two getting pissed at me for this... i can understand that it hurts but we all made plans to get out of oklahoma and just because your plans fell through and mine didnt is no fucking reason to resent me... it hurts that you two are doing this to me and i cant believe that you of all people, grace, are going to sit there and tell me that im making a mistake... its not my fault you hurt my feeling more than you will ever know before i left... im sorry my wanting to hang out with you on your birthday was such an inconvenience and im sorry that my presents i got you, that you still havent picked up, werent the roses that erica got you... if you guys arent going to be supportive then dont talk to me because i dont want to burn bridges i just want to be happy... im sorry for being happy... you two never knew this side of me... so please tell me that you love me because i will never stop loving you and hold my hand through this... dont beat me down and make me feel bad because thats not going to get me back...

[bloodxflux]

nothing is going to get you back. you're gone, i accept this. I'm over it. enjoy your life. later.