we thought you were 43
It's my 33rd birthday today.
So what are my thoughts, hopes and plans in this age?...
* First reflection that struck me today morning was that Christ died in my age so that I could be alive. I'm grateful to Him that He keeps me alive, especially spiritually and He doesn't let me forget about Him and His Word and promises.
* Even though birthdays are special days and you hope something will change on this particular day, they are still... normal days. The world is still the same, people are still the same and friends are still the same. And again I spend my evening on my own just like any other evening. I don't actually have many friends and my best friend is feeling sick, so she didn't come to try my delicious chocolate cake. The rest of my friends are on-line or too far to eat cake with them, so I got many wishes on FB and I'm thankful for each and every one.
* This is definitely my last year of working at school. I hate being helpless towards rudeness, aggression and... helplessness. I'm fed up with being treated with no respect by some 14 year old d*ckheads whose mothers believe they are the best kids in the world or are as helpless as the head master. I'm fed up with the Ministry of the Education ideas which cause more work and frustration among teachers and students than they do good. Yes, there are some kids I'll miss teaching them and some of them told me that they'd like to have me as their mum (haha!), but it's not enough to keep me in that place.
* I want to go to New Zealand to get away from this everything, have some rest, explore new country, new culture, breathe the Wellingtonian air, maybe find some inspiration and new ideas for life, try myself in different circumstances and in general start to enjoy my life anew.
* I've been considering staying there for little longer, because I thought there's nothing else I could do in my hometown except for teaching, but recently a new opportunity has arisen. My friend is starting a local radio station which used to be a pirate radio back in my high school days. I had my own radio show together with my brother and I really enjoyed doing that, but because it was illegal, it was put down. And now, after many years, my friend is starting a legal radio and invited me to have my own show. Just today he asked me which day suits me best and what I want to call it. As far as setting the time wasn't the problem, I have a problem with naming my show. I want to play soundtracks and discuss the films the soundtracks are from, that's my idea for the show. I'm so excited for this! I hope we'll start soon so that I could see if this is something I could still do if I came back from NZ. All in all, a new job opportunities make me want to come back here and do something different than teaching. I could still give private classes, but I'll never come back to a state school.
So, pretty positive future, ay? I just need to keep on living.
I love the song "Cheer Up, Murray" by Flight of the Conchords and a friend from FOTCmb.com posted this very suitable gif for me:
♥
OK, my cat's calling me to go for a walk with him.
So what are my thoughts, hopes and plans in this age?...
* First reflection that struck me today morning was that Christ died in my age so that I could be alive. I'm grateful to Him that He keeps me alive, especially spiritually and He doesn't let me forget about Him and His Word and promises.
* Even though birthdays are special days and you hope something will change on this particular day, they are still... normal days. The world is still the same, people are still the same and friends are still the same. And again I spend my evening on my own just like any other evening. I don't actually have many friends and my best friend is feeling sick, so she didn't come to try my delicious chocolate cake. The rest of my friends are on-line or too far to eat cake with them, so I got many wishes on FB and I'm thankful for each and every one.
* This is definitely my last year of working at school. I hate being helpless towards rudeness, aggression and... helplessness. I'm fed up with being treated with no respect by some 14 year old d*ckheads whose mothers believe they are the best kids in the world or are as helpless as the head master. I'm fed up with the Ministry of the Education ideas which cause more work and frustration among teachers and students than they do good. Yes, there are some kids I'll miss teaching them and some of them told me that they'd like to have me as their mum (haha!), but it's not enough to keep me in that place.
* I want to go to New Zealand to get away from this everything, have some rest, explore new country, new culture, breathe the Wellingtonian air, maybe find some inspiration and new ideas for life, try myself in different circumstances and in general start to enjoy my life anew.
* I've been considering staying there for little longer, because I thought there's nothing else I could do in my hometown except for teaching, but recently a new opportunity has arisen. My friend is starting a local radio station which used to be a pirate radio back in my high school days. I had my own radio show together with my brother and I really enjoyed doing that, but because it was illegal, it was put down. And now, after many years, my friend is starting a legal radio and invited me to have my own show. Just today he asked me which day suits me best and what I want to call it. As far as setting the time wasn't the problem, I have a problem with naming my show. I want to play soundtracks and discuss the films the soundtracks are from, that's my idea for the show. I'm so excited for this! I hope we'll start soon so that I could see if this is something I could still do if I came back from NZ. All in all, a new job opportunities make me want to come back here and do something different than teaching. I could still give private classes, but I'll never come back to a state school.
So, pretty positive future, ay? I just need to keep on living.
I love the song "Cheer Up, Murray" by Flight of the Conchords and a friend from FOTCmb.com posted this very suitable gif for me:
♥
OK, my cat's calling me to go for a walk with him.