Week 8 Post - Thoughts
I have been inspired my Christina to use live journal to vent and hopefully make sense of my thoughts. I wrote these down about two weeks ago and didn’t really know what to do with them. I just thought of the first essay question in whether or not you need to know how events and the people of my past have impacted me to understand where I’m coming from. You tell me.
Ok…. Feeling torn, feeling unsure, and debating over whether it is worth allowing that presence in my life again. That presence that caused me pain, that presence that defined hate. That person who lied over and over again, that person who wants control, that person who was rude, that person I have inherited my stubbornness from, that person simply thinking of makes me squirm.
The truth is I still I don’t know how I feel and what I want to do. There are two possible outcomes; a positive development and new relationship or going back. This fear of going backwards has outweighed the first outcome for the time being, merely because I only consider it to be a dream.