AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! it's torture, i swear, it's insane! guys think girls play mind games well whoa, aren't they ones to talk. i got spoiled, u know? i've had a few guy who really gave a crap about me. but well, they all stopped. my boyfriend called tonight. yeah... he remembered i exist. it was a short, uncomfortable ( Read more... )

Tristan told me he found this on Kirk's computer, hope i haven't said anything too dumb lately... but i prolly have ^_^ this is where i rant and rave. Today I had my meeting with the army recruiter. let's just say i'm not joining the army. maybe the air force in 4 years, but no army. From my test scores they told me i could do anything in there and ( Read more... )

ok, worked all day. job a got covered in coffee. job b sat in a box and was bored. i'm trying limewire, it seems to be doing good. got MM's holywood. someone at gamestop has a crush on me. heehee. i have a weird celeb crush on eric griffin. woot.

U remember that ancient Blink 182 song "What's my age again?" well... i'm the opposite of that. i'm a 40 year old in a 17 year old body. today several ppl i hold near and dear skipped first and second periods. well... i lectured 3 of the 4. the first i am extremely close to, and came back and handed me a rose "this is for you" *smile* awww, so ( Read more... )

i got a job at the Barnes and Nobles cafe. i'ma pimp! it's a hat tho, i have to wear a hat. i look like a boy in a hat. word.

haha, ppl think i'm a psycho cuz of my mental breakdown rant. i almost broke up with brent. he just did something that freaked me out real bad so i'm all like *raar* and we almost did. i swear him and ________ got something going on, lol. my homies know who i mean! well, i dunno. they are attached at the butt tho, i'm just arm candy. i worked box ( Read more... )

interview today, i think i did ok. got an interview with barnes and nobles. tabby and steffie kept asking me if i was ok. i know what they're talkin about. i'll be ok. i hate chem. BLAGH. and the angst is back. STOOPID ANGST!!!!!! raar... court tomorrow.

this saturday was my last band comp ever, but more on that later. trouble in paradise, steffie has her opinion and i know i should listen, but i never do. sometimes i think i let myself torture myself with things like my insane scedule to get some sort of weird sense of existing. speaking of which, barnes and nobles called me back, i have an ( Read more... )

today i had an eiphany: i'm nobody. and god did that hurt. i've worked my entire life trying to get ahead, to be something more, to be someone special. but all do just seems to be fruitless. i have worked harder this year than ever before in school and what does it get me? a 4.225 gpa. mommy says that's from last semester, but i don't think so. ( Read more... )

no school tomorrow! yaaaaay! going shopping with ashan, yaaaaaay! did our comp last nite, Round Table Tournament. I hosted mount tabor, they had this cool guy who knew what a contra is and likes it! it was awesome! mr. lowe said my solo ROCKED!!!!!! i saw lee, his hair is beautiful, u have no idea! i about fell asleep driving home, it was sooooo ( Read more... )