These are perhaps the first truely perspective reflections I've read since your breakup with Shaun (don't you love how I write this as if I know you personally?)
And perhaps this isn't really my place to comment, but I figure I'll just leave some few brief thoughts ...
In spite of all that's happened, you can't deny that it's all been a learning experience, right? You took a chance where others may have been cowardace and backed out. And even if you got burned in the end, at least it was good while you were in it. John Nolan said it best when he wrote "wondering 'what if' is the worst thing there is."
So is my newfound profound-ness a good or bad thing?
This has been an experience, that's probably the truest (or is it most true?) statement to be said about the whole thing. And while I ultimately know, in my heart of hearts that it was something I needed and that it'd always be a part of who I am (or will be), some days I can't help but wonder... what if? And I know John Nolan would be so disappointed, but I don't know. I'm sure in a few years, maybe in a few months, I'll be able to say "God, I was such a dumb-fuck for thinking all of those things, and being so overanalytical and retarded about the situation." But I'm not quite there yet. But I know I will be... but for now... "What I'm looking for are the answers, to why these questions never go away..." - Crossfade. Don't ask me why, I'm on a kick.
First off, I really like those lyrics. And usually when I like the lyrics of a band, I like their music (Fall Out Boy and Ani DiFranco have been rare exceptions). So I'm definitely gonna be on the search soon.
And ... you know, this is where I'll probably have to back off a little. I can get philisophical all I want, but until I have some concrete experiences of my own to draw upon, there's little else I can say, contribute, or advise upon. All I can do is suggest that you find every possible silver lining you can. If you were presented with another Shaun knowing what you know now, would you behave the same way? Because if you can do something different to prevent yourself from getting hurt again, then you took learned something in the end, and you're putting it to use.
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And perhaps this isn't really my place to comment, but I figure I'll just leave some few brief thoughts ...
In spite of all that's happened, you can't deny that it's all been a learning experience, right? You took a chance where others may have been cowardace and backed out. And even if you got burned in the end, at least it was good while you were in it. John Nolan said it best when he wrote "wondering 'what if' is the worst thing there is."
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This has been an experience, that's probably the truest (or is it most true?) statement to be said about the whole thing. And while I ultimately know, in my heart of hearts that it was something I needed and that it'd always be a part of who I am (or will be), some days I can't help but wonder... what if? And I know John Nolan would be so disappointed, but I don't know. I'm sure in a few years, maybe in a few months, I'll be able to say "God, I was such a dumb-fuck for thinking all of those things, and being so overanalytical and retarded about the situation." But I'm not quite there yet. But I know I will be... but for now...
"What I'm looking for are the answers, to why these questions never go away..." - Crossfade. Don't ask me why, I'm on a kick.
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First off, I really like those lyrics. And usually when I like the lyrics of a band, I like their music (Fall Out Boy and Ani DiFranco have been rare exceptions). So I'm definitely gonna be on the search soon.
And ... you know, this is where I'll probably have to back off a little. I can get philisophical all I want, but until I have some concrete experiences of my own to draw upon, there's little else I can say, contribute, or advise upon. All I can do is suggest that you find every possible silver lining you can. If you were presented with another Shaun knowing what you know now, would you behave the same way? Because if you can do something different to prevent yourself from getting hurt again, then you took learned something in the end, and you're putting it to use.
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