what? I passed Amber Whyman's veins and arteries lab practicle with a 90%? how is this possible that I did good for once?!

thank fucking god.

I am basically royally fucked for the rest of my life.

bye bye anxiety.

hopefully now I can concentrate and be succesful at whatever it is I choose to do.

I have no faith in anything that I do, and that is most likely the reason why I fail at or do not get better at anything and everything I try.

and I don't know how to change it (besides counceling, which I currently cannot afford), but it is ruining my life.

soo umm, I reached my initial goal weight of 100 pounds today. But since mike's family and I are doing weight losing competition, I'm going to continue to see if it's possible for me to be double digits, which would make me very happy. Our competition is going on for 2 months, and we are 1 month in. So far, Jennifer (Mike's little sister and I ( Read more... )

I just don't get it, what is it that others see in me, that I do not?

I guess medicine doesn't always help like I thought it did.

on a side note: I'm a retard.

Where are you period?
Mike and I are getting worried, not so much me, more worrying from mike.
I need to go back on the pill so I'm "regular."
How annoying.

I miss slinky (my ferret), today I went to the pet shop and picked up a baby ferret that looked a lot like him. So tiny, so cute, so stinky. I remember when slinky used to give me kisses, so what do I do? try to give the baby ferret a kiss.... and what do I get? I ferret that bites my lip causing it to bleed and swell. hot.

ew molly peck.

sooo, I think I'm going to apply to Oneonta, Fredonia, and Stony Brook Universities soon, hoping that atleast one will accept me. the probability of that occuring is about a .0002341% if I did my statistics correct. Which is also highly unlikely ( Read more... )