Life would be so much easier if i could just be a whore and sleep around. I guess i understand where people are coming from tho.. morals suck.

Well, lets see.... Chad came to florida and went back home. didn't get to see him tho. And now i can't get ahold of him again. Ethan's in boot camp... i miss him. Been gettin letters from him tho, and he'll be back on the 30th (hopefully). I quit pac sun at the end of may.. but now im back working at the pac sun in vierra. Been there for a ( Read more... )

I've noticed that i don't really get lonely until its time for bed....

And I climb in all by myself....

Then i cry myself to sleep.

I hadn't heard from Chad in about a week and a half.. so i called his house.. i asked if he was home... his momma says "no, he's out with his girlfriend." That explains a lot.

*heartbreak*

( ) smoked a cigarette ( Read more... )

Learned a very valuable lesson this morning... Love Conquers All.

Well, i'm leaving monday morning, tuesday at the latest....Goin to NY for about 2 weeks. Chad said he would call me Sunday... its now wednesday and i've yet to hear from him.... Im not callin him till i get to NY.. and if he wants to frieken see me he can call me. Ok, well ima go find sum lunch... back lata

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fuckkkkkkkkk this... I hate staying up so late cuz i open my big fat fucking mouth and i ask stupid questions and i say stupid shit and i just don't realize wut im doing until i've dug a whole so damn deep that i fucking hate myself. I'm sorry matt.... you don't deserve any of the shit i put you through ( Read more... )

Bad feelings... idk wut it is.. but somethings not right tonight....

It's all been said... please ask your questions now, and tell me how you REALLY feel...