...yeah its been really interesting lately,ive been pretty happy despite everything, i finally did something for myself. i pretty sure this week has been the most emotional. ive gone through so many ups and downs it fucking nuts. im trying really hard not to let stuff get me down, and im so fucking sorry that right when im happy and things are ( Read more... )

...yeah...im really wondering why im writing this i guess i think if im not thinking about how much i fuck up then i might feel half way alive. i just need to be alone for a few days, i need to think...i really dont know anymore im at a complete and total loss for words...this time i really think there is no good way to get out of this and contrary ( Read more... )

Yeah,life is going good i suppose. im chillen at chars house figured id wright since i havent in a while well im not much into to explaning life so im gonna split

Well, i have so much on my mind im not quite sure what to talk about. Im running on no food, no sleep, and its been two days. Some how or another i seem to be slowly fading away weather or not thats good or bad is too early to tell. My mind is on overdrive i just wish i could sleep and not constantly think. Its occurred to me that when it seems ( Read more... )

Hey Hey Hey things arnt so bad, im pretty happy. i got my new board as i said im so happy. its so rad! i rides good too. im skating friday with zck and nick and such that should be cool. finally im not filming ( Read more... )

alrighty, well ive got to make this fast...ok lots and lots has gone on just a few things tht stand out are...a certain someone called me(you know who you are wink gahandi)ha ha that was a very intresting experience. Schools BLOWS! im still single but i met a new guy, except hes only 5 years older than me darn!..jk well,sean got hurt i was upset ( Read more... )

theres a lot of things i want to make clear to people so they can better understand me and so i can get this shit off my chest but, i cant get them all straight in my head to apply to writing form so i guess ill try my best. one thing that pisses me off more than anything in this whole fucking world is the fact that people assume things about me ( Read more... )

Well well, lets start this entry off with i fucking hate ignorant, vain, fat, fucks, that goes to everyone so please dont assume. now that ive said that i can talk about whats been going on . well, my dads in the hospital so im just kinda trying to keep my food down im so nervous. on a different note, things havent gotten bad entill a few days ago ( Read more... )

Im happy! this is so weird ive sat here for two or three hours staring at the computer listening to music wishing i wasnt lonely and it hit me. it dosent matter anymore ive always thought that if i had someone and i fell in love again then i would have that feeling back. the feeling of pure happyness. I think its more that i need someone but i feel ( Read more... )

well, as of right now i cant complain. Life isnt bad but, it isnt good either so, i figure i try to be happy and look on the bright side of things since lauren and everyone else i know seems to think im too negative. well tomorrow im going to the mall to meet charmaines boyfriend and that should be cool he seems like a nice guy and he makes her ( Read more... )