matt never called me :.(
i really cant sleep
i dont know if hes mad at me for something idk
hes never not called me
i know it might not seem like a big deal
but hes called me every night
since we became friends again (literally)
i wonder what i did
omg im so scared
im crying and throwing up
im so worried

i love you matthew todd <3

talked to peanut on the phone for awhile...

FEELINGS:
         .:. Worried (for him and me and us and my brother and well and everything)
                  .:. In Love (with peanut with my whole heart and being)
        .:. Happy (hearing a bit of hope in matts voice and hes finally making a ( Read more... )

stevie: smile amanda... it doesnt seem like you do anymore.

shes right.  and i cant

I love stevie she really is one of the greatest friends ever and sometimes its little things like that that make me cry like a few days ago she said i miss the goofy wild amanda that i grew up with, just stuff like that because she knows me so well even with out ( Read more... )

wait...They dont love you like i love you ( Read more... )

i made peanut smile.
that really means the world to me
i dont think he understands just how much
hes so beautiful and hes all mine
Forever n ever

he really is my everything and more
hes all i want and all i'll ever need
just being around him makes me feel so wonderful
it makes my heart want to explode
i love him so much and i think thats why im so scared ( Read more... )

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ok so this is the second time i've typed this

today was long but beautiful in most aspects

went to matts around 3:15 for the family party that everyone (even drew) was there for.  it was fun mainly, ant, matt, markie, me, nick, chris and amanda hung out though. we went to the mall for a little bit which is always fun in itself haha we saw ugly ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday Matthew <3

Days will come ( Read more... )

love is...

<3

...the smell of you're sweat shirt and how safe it makes me feel

happy birthday matthew...