frail perfection

[emohshitz]

Each restless heart beats so imperfectly,

isn't it all this is about?
# frail perfectionokay, so i told my mum about it. i thought she'd help, i thought maybe if i could get her help i could actually recover. but i guess i was wrong. she seems to think it's a joke. she just doesn't know how deep i've sunk. i don't know. right now, i really dont

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[_superzero]

i still don't know you too well. i'm sorry!

if you don't mind answering this... what kind of eating disorder do you have?

[emohshitz]

had anorexia & bulimia from feb-may. since then, bulimia.

[_superzero]

man, i think everyone with anorexia deals with bulimia, and vice versa. a woman that worked at the hospital told me she thinks they should be considered the same thing sometimes. which i can understand. they always seem to come in pairs.

i'm sorry your mom can't be more supportive. parents don't get it, i don't think. some people have these extra supportive parents, they don't argue or anything, just lend their support, and i envy it so much. then there are parents like mine who say i have the "idiot's disease". my mom says she would never have been so stupid as to starve herself. they really don't get it sometimes. i found out it's probably the best decision for me to stop trying to make them understand. it'll only lead to a fight. instead, go somewhere else for support.

[emohshitz]

yeah, my mum just thinks its a big joke. i'm considering professional help but i dont know, i dont quite like the idea of getting doctors involved.