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[emojacie]

Last night Morgan and I were having an argument that both of us believed to be a simple, friendly debate. It had gotten a little bit personal, and I felt bad about being so critical. I seem to want to push him into contradicting roles. I want him to stand up for himself and not let people walk all over him. Yet, by the same coin I still want him to

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I am so sorry Jacie. I love you.

[gimpy989]

I am so sorry about that, Jacie. There have been about five times in my life when I have said something that I have truly regretted afterwards. I don't mean I regretted it for 5 minutes and then forgot about it. I mean regretted to the point where you remember it years later as one of the lowest, most ill-thought-out things you have ever said. That is seriously one of those. The other four are probably something I said to my mother about my dad, something really crude that I said to my mother once at dinner, something I said to my grandfather near Christmas, and something I said to you one afternoon in bed. I really do remember all of these (details are omitted here because they are embarrassing and because I have tried to forget them and because there is some small comfort in not writing them...I would be happy to tell you in person, though.) Last night was an addition to that list. Please forgive me, Jacie. I say the most ridiculous, demeaning things sometimes and I don't mean them. It's just what comes out