tidal waves?

[emokid1218]

yup, here I am again...punking out on livejournal as usual. I don't know who the hell to talk to about anything 'cause no one would understand why I'd think such absurd thoughts. also I can't sleep so here are my ramblings. no one reads this anyway, but whatever. people tell me all too often to stop overthinking everything all the time and just let

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[ice_cream_queen]

i know we haven't talk in forever and this is random, but i felt compelled to make a comment (moreso because you have put into words what i havent been able to). it really sounds like you have found that clarity. it's a hard place to be, but it sounds like youre heading in the right direction to do what is best for you... "I don't even care if it's another 3 years before I get to feel this way again. at least I can say I've felt it."

[emokid1218]

hey Rachel, thanks for commenting. and yeah, it's funny how it can take so long to get shit together sometimes and finally realize that pain and happiness isn't up to anyone but us. hopefully if I was able to put into words what you couldn't, this ridiculous post helped you sort out your thoughts too, haha. anyway, hope you're doing well.

[ice_cream_queen]

being a selfless person (as i remember you are very selfless and concerned for others), can be hard... atlas, having the world on your shoulders. as hard as it is, it is quite the hard to realize that it is impossible to make those around you, who rely on you, throughly happy if you are not happy yourself. i hope that makes sense.

sometimes, it's strange where you find a piece of mind.

i also hope you're doing well and keep your head up... it really sounds like you're heading down the right direction to find yourself.