dont read it

[emokidtimmyp]

i dont even know if anyone reads this but whatever heres waht i want you to do if you do read this, think of your life and think of all the good things you have going for you all the positives if you will anything good. got it? ok now imagine if they all went wrong. everything good you had going somehow went to shit. got it? ok so tahts the point

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[xfadinghopex]

you have me if that makes you feel any better. And I love you, a lot.

[emokidtimmyp]

thanks jess that means a lot to me

[iwantgrace]

i hardly even know you timmy and this breaks my heart to see you so upset because the few times i've met you, you've seemed like one of the happiest people i've met.
i'm so sorry that you're feeling so depressed for so long, i've definatly had the same thoughts you have had, just know you aren't alone.
and just know people that you hardly even know (such as me) care about you more than you think.

[emokidtimmyp]

thank you =)

[glove_to_face]

You know what I want?
I want you to realise that you have one of the most healthy brains on the planet. You're not super-human. You're just a super human. I know (trust me, I know) how it felt to be completely happy and let the horrid things wash over me as if I turned on the facet, realised it was scolding hot water, and then quickly pulled my hand back. Now I just let it sit there, as if I'm not aware that I could move it. But this began years ago.

I wishwishwish something phenomonal will happen for you. Something that will awaken the old, sleeping Timmy. And I know this will happen. It's just that there are times when the bad becomes worse and it doesn't just seem, but actually DOES last a good while. I get these kind/caring feelings when I think of you and I believe everything will become lighter again. I don't understand why things pile up and make life horrid. But they do. I hope it all gets better soon, Timmy.

[emokidtimmyp]

thank you a lot. i also wish phenomonal things for you. we should talk more, how have you been?

[glove_to_face]

I've been relatively well! I think things will be looking up soon-ish. It feels like it's taken years to be able to say that.

We should talk more. I need to make more time for friends. It's awful how much I tend to section myself off from people. Will you be returning to Stockton at any point? Like next semester? Either way, whenever Paula, Russell and I have a get-together at the Brigantine place, we always invite people you know, so it wouldn't be awkward if you wished to come over, as well (like Chris, Kevin, Patrick, Donald, etc). I miss sitting around silently and listening to your odd, funny conversations with Donald. That was a blast. :D

[emokidtimmyp]

im glad to hear things are looking up and yes next semester ill be making my way back through the classrooms at stockton. keep me updated on these get togethers id love to attend. mann even if you had some free time we should all get together get lunch or something and catch up i miss those lunch table chats with everyone being around and just having a good time, it was so good. i want that!

[emokidtimmyp]

hey thats awesome we should definitely get drunk. its basically all i do.

ps. fantasy is wack. i saw your post a few days ago about xbox 360 games i was meaning to comment. i have all those games you mentioned, dead rising is the sickest madden 07 is kinda cool and life is good in the hood in saints row. we should get online and play some smack the pimp or wahtever it is haha

[emokidtimmyp]

im down! im at the part where you gotta get the bombs from the trucks in the parking garage and i cant beat it ive been stuck on it for mad long it sucks im getting pissed at it but other than that the game is the sickest. superstar mode in madden sucks though i have it. other than that we gotta get down and play!

[eyes_burned]

timmafy,

i love you like forever. im tryin to see alot more of you but now you arent on that aim tip and i dont have ur number anymore. please call mme so i can get ur number again.

love for real deal,

Chris

[emokidtimmyp]

ilu mister. ill holler at you i still got your number so were straight. hang out asapo