Actually, I probably reveal here on LJ more of what I'd like to do and say than I ever would in real life. I think I have every right to feel anger and resentment over this whole situation. I voice those feelings here. While I no longer hold my feelings in like I used to, in real life, I soften their expression with humor.
I understand that. I'm not very outward with my feelings in real life, too. Hold it in, until I freak out. Just the day before yesterday I yelled talking on my cell in a tram full of people. They sort of moved away, I guess they thought I will kick somebody >:P
What I wanted to say: I know you feel anger, and it's quite understandable, considering everything, but everybody makes mistakes, and Char is no exception. Somebody's mistakes don't have so durable consequnces, it's partially a matter of luck. Some folks make worse choices, with less consequences. You should look on the bright side. You still did became a grandpa, even though a bit early, and even though Char's relationship with HB is not going great, but there's still this ( I'm sure beautiful ) child who needs all of you to love him your best. And I'm pretty sure Char will become much more responsible now that she is a mother.
I understand everything you are saying. I express my anger, frustration, and rancor here in LJ, but I will never act any of that out, or express it even as much as I should. I will do what I know I have to do. I'll be whom I know I must be. And prolly that will further fuel my resentment, because I'm so very tired of having to be anything at all. I just want to be. Just once. Does that make sense?
I think sometimes what I say in my journal paints a very different picture to my LJ friends from what goes on in real life. I suppose what I'm trying to say is I vent here.
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Good luck to everyone.
(And I'm happy you're excited about it)
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(I am, because she knows everything she endures henceforth could have been prevented by my advice. My revenge is at hand! Muahahahahaha!)
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Actually, I probably reveal here on LJ more of what I'd like to do and say than I ever would in real life. I think I have every right to feel anger and resentment over this whole situation. I voice those feelings here. While I no longer hold my feelings in like I used to, in real life, I soften their expression with humor.
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What I wanted to say: I know you feel anger, and it's quite understandable, considering everything, but everybody makes mistakes, and Char is no exception. Somebody's mistakes don't have so durable consequnces, it's partially a matter of luck. Some folks make worse choices, with less consequences. You should look on the bright side. You still did became a grandpa, even though a bit early, and even though Char's relationship with HB is not going great, but there's still this ( I'm sure beautiful ) child who needs all of you to love him your best. And I'm pretty sure Char will become much more responsible now that she is a mother.
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And why did you freak out?
I understand everything you are saying. I express my anger, frustration, and rancor here in LJ, but I will never act any of that out, or express it even as much as I should. I will do what I know I have to do. I'll be whom I know I must be. And prolly that will further fuel my resentment, because I'm so very tired of having to be anything at all. I just want to be. Just once. Does that make sense?
I think sometimes what I say in my journal paints a very different picture to my LJ friends from what goes on in real life. I suppose what I'm trying to say is I vent here.
And look at you! Wise beyond your years!
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