Holy shit, I practically forgot about this thing...

[empresse]

Wow, I can't believe how long it's been since I've updated this thing. For a long time, I just felt too crappy to care about things like this. However, in the last month or so, I have turned my life around (with help, mind you.) So, where is our Emily now? Let me fill you in (though I don't know who will read this anyway

Comments

[felicitous]

hmm. amusing that you should say not to feel guilty about stupid things you've done.

you've given yourself a lot of credit for turning things around. (which is good, obviously.)

but what about other people who have made stupid mistakes (albeit many of them) and finally turned things around? how long do they have to feel guilty and be punished? that's what i want to know.

[empresse]

until they really, truly understand what they have done and try to change it. trust must be earned. you have earned nothing. you still don't undertstand the concept of doing the right thing for the sake of doing the right thing, not to better yourself in some way.

[felicitous]

this may be true- for you. i see it differently. i think i truly have changed, and i think it's been that way for awhile. i just don't think you've given me the chance to prove that. like with the money situation, you asked to BORROW money from me and said you would pay me back, all the while knowing you weren't going to. if you had told me up front you weren't going to pay me back, i wouldn't have cared. you never gave me the chance