I've been reading, I swear. There's so much I want to write, but I've been grounded for the longest time. It feels so good to type again. To look at my computer. To talk to my friends. To talk to you. Everything has been so horrible. Tuesday had it's up points. In fact, every day has it's up points. But the bad always seems to outweigh the good.

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Somehow I got this idea that I would write something insightful and meaningful today. I started to think and I lost it.

"I've bought my tickets with my tears; that's all I'm going to spend."

Sometimes it's when everyone shows up that you don't want them there. Today everyone was talking about how I'm never happy and stuff. And how they're worried about me. Good for them. First of all, I wish they wouldn't talk about me without me knowing until afterwards. Secondly, I know I have some mental issues. I don't need anyone to tell me I do. ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night. I dreamt that Steven and I met at some place called "The Atlanta Journal" (it was kind of a bar/food place) and his parents came and my parents came and it was the coolest thing since dry ice. He was great, his parents were great, we were great together... then I woke up and realized that we haven't met yet and now ( Read more... )

"And if I hurt you, then I'm sorry... please don't think that this was easy."

Steven,
Well, this is kind of awkward. I hope you get online soon because I need to talk to you about this, but in case you read this all the time, I'll write it here for you and the world to read as well. I'm really not the best person ever. I never have been. I'm ( Read more... )

So I bet you all are thinking I'm a sellout because I'm becuase I'm trying to be all socialable or something. I don't know. Some people have always told me I have no friends because I don't make the effort to make them. So maybe I'll have new kick-butt friends some day.
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I've gotton pretty deep into things lately. I mean, emotionally. I think I'm becoming more and more emo. I don't know if I like it or not. I don't think I'm completely changing, but maybe I'm going through a metamorphisis. I'm becoming more passionate about some things. Like I'd love to learn how to dance, like tango or something. And I'm trying to ( Read more... )

Haven't really been myself lately. I guess I have a lot of explaining to do. Addison came over last night so we could work on The Scarlet Letter for English. How fun... right. I had enough of a problem with him coming over anyways. It was just so weird, I mean, the first thing my dad said was "Addison, you don't see her enough of at school?" As if ( Read more... )

Remember when I was all bummed last week because the Dashboard Confessional + Brand New + MXPX + Vendetta Red concert sold out? Well, they added another date. October 5th. I am the happiest person alive. I am like to tears. I also get to see The Rocket Summer + The Format on September 4th. Yeah, Thursday..a school night. I'm hoping my parents won't ( Read more... )

The quiet things no one ever knows. What are those, you ask? Used to be my ljs, but I changed that. Now it's nothing. I guess I can be honest and say what I want.

So why did I pick "The Quiet Things No One Ever Knows" ? Thursday I got rejected. Monday I found out that boy one was never physically attracted to me. My personality drew him to me. Then ( Read more... )