I have allotted myself one wistful/sad playlist. That playlist looks like this in no particular order ( Read more... )

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I've had dreams about dating other people for the last two nights. It's like my subconscious is trying to figure out what my life might look like without Myles in it.

I was just looking at my ex's myspace profile. He looks great and seems to be doing well but I am so, so glad that isn't my life.

I think we might have just skipped over our late summer this year. Yesterday the rain caught me off guard: no umbrella, no hoodie and wearing converse instead of shoes that actually stay dry. Today I'm ready to make the most of it.

I wake up early these days. Myles' alarm goes off at eight thirty so I wake up around that time every day regardless ( Read more... )

I'm a little over extended these days. School starts next week which is exciting though I'm having trouble figuring out which classes to take. I also supposedly do not qualify for financial aide which seems strange. There is also some sort of hold on my account which is preventing me for signing up for any more classes which is also strange. ( Read more... )

I got A's in both of my classes this sememster!

Park day. It was nice to see Alison even if I was so introverted that I didn't say much ( Read more... )

I just got a really fucking sad phonecall from my sister. It's hard talking/thinking about things going on in my mom's house. The call woke me up and she was hysterical- all that she could get out was the word mom. I panicked, thinking she was in the hospital again and that I'd have no way to get over there. My mother had just picked a particularly ( Read more... )

This lack of trust is killing me. I hate that my needs come last and I hate what this says about the bigger picture. It was kind of scary to have my sister call me out on this. I know what needs to happen next and I'm getting myself ready (slowly). I keep saying that all the potential in the world is worthless. I keep saying that those perfect ( Read more... )