so i love him very much. and i dont know how i can leave him. the past 2.5 years have been the best ever. i will miss him so much. what an amazing boyfriend. i am so lucky.
im doen writing in this things. its just bad news.
but one last entry:
they are putting my dog to sleep. i have a new job that i love. i cant wait to go away to school. my friends are awesome. he is more awesome. the end <3
i surrender. i give up. its like a one way road and it shoudlnt be. i am no happy in the situation. it shouldnt be this much work when the end result is still the same.