today was great.
it was more than great.
it was all i could ask for.

homecoming was cool. nothing special, but not all that bad either. i'm soooo glad it's over though. i don't have to worry or stress about it anymore. sigh. i didn't dance much, but its okay i guess. mark was my date and he got me a corsage. very pretty. everyone looked gorgeous and handsome and all that good stuff. afterwards, michelle, tony, mark ( Read more... )

i feel so horrible. so fuckin horrible. i'm such a bad friend. i bet she hates me now. GAHHH.
i don't know if i should say no. i want to say yes. i really really really want to say yes.
i don't know. god, i should be shot.

so much to worry about and stress over, but i don't feel like talking about it ( Read more... )

i had an awesome weekend. i'm failing classes. enough said.

i have that sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. i haven't had that feeling in so long. it used to hurt, but felt good.. i can't explain. its not as strong as it usually is ( Read more... )

went to the animal shelter today and found this ( doggy. )

i don't know why i put myself in the position to get hurt in the first place. geez, i always do that ( Read more... )

i don't know why i let things get to me like this. it takes so little to get me to cry and i really really hate it. it feels like its been a while, but it probably hasn't. i'm not going to resort to old habits. i just can't. i'm fuckin awful. i don't care what you say, i can't hear you through these thick walls i've built up. i need a long ( Read more... )

i got back from art camp today. goddamn i had a great time. the first two days were kinda ehh because my art class was quiet and boring, but i got used to it. the people i hung out with were wonderful and i really needed a week full of inside jokes, laughter, new faces, and art. i'm glad i didn't go to camp with someone really close (josh is pretty ( Read more... )