what the fuck is up with you? youre being so damn insensitive. yeah, im having a hard time with myself. i KNOW ive got problems dammit. i dont need you getting frustrated with me when i try to open up to you. i dont need your yelling at me, its hard enough as it is to try to talk to you. why??? why cant you just be soft, an listen instead of ( Read more... )

Oy. I feel lonely. And unspecial.

And he is going away for two months.

And when im sad he dosent really comfort me :-/

le sigh. :(

So I'm looking at cars right, and im looking at the honda element. I go to check its towing capacity (since i'd need it for my horses and trailer that dosent exist yet) and guess how much it is? 1500 lbs. AHAHAHAHA. ONE of my horses alone weighs at least 1200-1300 lbs. ahahahaha little pussy shit.

HKwhiplash: you have integrity, a long term commited relationship, and a heart pulling you in such an unusual direction. oh, and you are really hot. that goes well in there. yup, thats why you are my hero

HKwhiplash: you have integrity, a long term commited relationship, and a heart pulling you in such an unusual direction. oh, and you are really hot. that goes well in there. yup, thats why you are my hero

TenshiNoShi1: im pissed ( Read more... )

also, hes got a job and going to college! :) <3<3<3

i love my guy friends. talking to nate at school i tried to get him to walk with me and he told me no- he couldnt. after this, i flicked him off. he paused and said 'right now?' then he pointed to a spot on the floor. I picked up my camera and asked him if he wanted pictures. hahah :p TenshiNoShi1: so if youre still up for ( Read more... )

I cant sleep. how am i supposed to sleep... im scared that im going to lose him. he is going to leave me. not like i deserve him. or anyone for that matter. but i realised that mabye i havent grown at all over all theese years. im the same little girl who cries and shakes and curls up alone in the bathroom when shes scared. when her ant threat of ( Read more... )

he's going to leave me... i am so so scared