i'm learning (yes, still learning) how many times.. its not until there are no other options or i'm at the end of my rope that it frees God to more easily move in my life. unfortunately i like to pretend i know what i'm doing & that i don't really need His assistance.. when really i can't even begin to function w/o His help ( Read more... )

Do you know how close God is to you? As close as your next breath or next heartbeat.. yeah that sounds horribly cliche, but its absolutely true. I've been in this funk for a few weeks now.. where I need a change of some sort, a change of I don't really know what, but I have felt the need for it like a weight.. for some time. Until a friend ( Read more... )

One of the coolest experiences I've had b/c of God has got to have been when HE provided a way for me to meet Brian 'Head' Welch from the band KoRn. No, it wasn't at a concert- I've never seen them live.. let alone was I a big fan or anything. I admit, I did like a few songs by them in H.S., but that was it. Anyways, a few years ago I had heard ( Read more... )

I have blogged for a long time & have kinda been on hiatus as of late, but I am now going to start something new. I am going to blog about certain events that have happened in my life that show God's workings. This isn't an attempt to brag on me, my husband or my whole family, but an opportunity to brag on God. Its also an opportunity to share ( Read more... )

i've had a lot on my mind lately.. but even w/ that.. my mind tends to flow towards the Lord a lot these days.. & sometimes i don't even realize it.. i love that. i don't even go an hour w/o my thoughts turning to the Lord.. & its usually along the lines of "wow God.. whatever i'm experiencing is brilliant, thank you.." or "thank you God that ( Read more... )

why am i always the most awake, the most alive at night? i should be winding down & going to bed, but many nights i am doing & feeling quite the opposite. btw do any of you, readers, take my blog seriously even though i lack proper punctuations, grammatical skills & such? ok. good. :D just had been meaning to ask ( Read more... )

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this is like the fifth post in a few days.. after another dry spell.. but i have something on the inside of me that needs to get out.. the only thing is.. i don't know what it is, but that i know its there & that it needs out ( Read more... )

you know you loved dashboard confessional at the beginning of his career.. i remember his first show in portland.. oh yeah this was back when it was JUST chris & not a whole band.. it was mine & kenney's first ever date. :D so, i have other reasons to have a special place for him & his music.. joy was w/ us for that show & i can honestly say ( Read more... )

the other day i had been driving by an old familiar place & unfortunately it wasn't a good familiar.. in fact it gave me anxiety. i hadn't wrestled w/ anxiety for a long time, but driving by this place brought it instantly back. then my natural response was to go back to those places in the past, via my mind & it was miserable. the people i'd ( Read more... )