how is it i manage to - oh screw it. i am not good with relationships. roger and i are still together, but i feel like i just am doing everything wrong. i should go back to bed. maybe i was meant to be a hermit.

I rented the movie "Death to Smoochy" last night. It was wicked funny. It was very nutty and made me laugh out loud. Maybe I am just weird, well I know thats true. I have a very strange sense of humor. That and the sniffles. I hate the sniffles. I have them because I was up with the sun today and there is something innately wrong with that ( Read more... )

Wow - there is alot on my mind, and I don't think Live Journal is the place for it. . i cannot wait for Roger to get from the field (he is doing the army thing: running, jumping, climbing trees). i miss him so much. he's funny, and he understands me. understands me completely. and, after reading something I am ready to surrender my heart over. I ( Read more... )

Ok - so J.Harris is closed. Shut down. No longer in business. This has made my week. That and Roger (big grin). hmmm... I'm off to dinner/ evening snack with Jon M... will upddate when i get back!

I need to relax and trust. I was re reading a lot of what I wrote and I need to take my own advice. Well I seem to have met someone who is not jerking me around. Roger. . Its funny, he said something to me that I have really been thinking about. He is leaving in a week, but he told me he coming back for me around Christmas. Its like one chapter of ( Read more... )

ok night numero dos of the cocktailing scene ( Read more... )

(as travis so affectionately calls my job) since it is 4am, i am going to write list format what i came home with ( Read more... )

Ok well - my feet are the casualities from last night. i wore these crap shoes and my feet and cut up. Damn - pain.... ok so tonight I am going to wear boots.

Last night was my first night as a cocktail waitress. Kind of. i was training. which means i stood around doing zilch. Will give more detailed report tonight.

ok - i'm mad, it would seem in my bleary 5am state i thought i heard a song about Andy Dufrane, which would have been wicked cool, but there's not.

Andy Dufrane is the main character in Shawshank Redemption. Which is a spectacular movie with the best ending i've ever seen. someone should write a song involving him.

it is now 5:30 am. i am still awake. bad thing. i stopped chatting at 3:45. went to go to sleep and couldnt'/ felt bad. meds i needed were at my apartment, which i just got back from. i am killing time waiting for them to kick in so i can sleep. its was pretty outside. these 2 dumb women almost walked into my car, adn i heard a song on the radio ( Read more... )