i'm not dead, i swear - i'm very much alive

sorry i haven't been around too often (don't give up on me!)

on a side note, i quit smoking completely, and i'm pretty damn proud of myself.

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the flowers are all
engraved in gold
on the front of
her cigarette case
ideal symmetries
following me
everywhere i go,
again and again
and with each step
i am at loss
and more so
in the next
her little things
stay with me
until the train leaves
in the morning
and i am gone

the sun
sings softly in kowloon
cutting glances between
bodies, space
and air-
the trains here are fast.
and around the bend
i am everywhere:
hitting, with
the kind of clarity
you get
when the wind
cuts through you
at forty miles an hour
and now
sitting in a room
thousands of miles from home
i am nothing
to anyone
but the soft
in the threads
of her warm
sleeveless dress

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x: i wanna start a band, and hype it up. you know, get a badass politically-charged folk rock name like 'the activists' and rave about how we're vegetarians and all anti-war and against 'the system' and shit. then all our songs will be long-winded themes about something meaningless like love, or how much it sucks that we're not getting laid
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other than me coming down with the flu as of late, things from an economic standpoint have been going well. if all goes according to plan, i should have guaranteed a decent, high-paying position at st. rose hospital in a few weeks, and have all my debts paid off in the same amount of time. my mr2 is for sale (and so are most of my guitars), and i ( Read more... )

"whenever i meet a beauty, i escape or hide in a corner. not that i think they are intimidating, but they attract horrible people. some guys really do their utmost to make these beautiful women believe how good they are. beauty means power. and i'm a bit cynical towards all that. honestly i've never met a beautiful girl that i really liked. you ( Read more... )

tonight i have realized that having people to trust is heartbreaking, at the very least. because the people who are important to me aren't very honest, not even to themselves